Lesbians -- Fiction; Psychological fiction; Women teachers -- Fiction
Clare, passing with a nod, found her way barred by a white-faced scrap
of humanity, whose courage, obviously and pitifully, was desperation.
But Clare could be very blind when she did not choose to see.
"Miss Hartill, may I speak to you?"
"I can't wait, Louise. I'm busy."
"Miss Hartill, was it all right? Were you pleased? I tried furiously.
Was it as you wanted it?"
"Oh, you played your own version." Clare caught her up sharply.
"But Miss Durand said--you said I was to."
"I expect it was all right," said Clare lightly. "I'm afraid I was too
busy to attend much, even to your efforts, Louise." She smiled
crookedly. "And now run along and change."
She pushed against the door, but Louise, beyond all control, caught back
the handles.
"Miss Hartill--you shall listen. Are you always going to be angry? What
have I done? Will you never be good to me again as you used to be?"
Clare's face grew stern.
"Louise, you are being very silly. Let me pass."
"Because I can't bear it. It's killing me. Couldn't you stop being
angry?"
Clare, ignoring her, wrenched open the door. Louise, flung sideways,
slipped on the polished floor. She crouched where she fell, and caught
at Clare's skirts. She was completely demoralised.
"Miss Hartill! Oh, please--please--if you would only understand. You
hurt me so. You hurt me so."
Clare stood looking down at her.
"Once and for all, Louise, I dislike scenes. Let me go, please."
For a moment their eyes strove. And suddenly Louise, relaxing all
effort, let her go. Without another look, Clare retraced her steps and
entered the Common-room. Louise, still crouching against the wall,
watched her till she disappeared. The doors swung and clicked into
rigidity.
There was a sudden uproar of voices and laughter and scraping chairs. A
distant door had opened.
Louise started to her feet, and sped swiftly up the stairs, flight on
flight, of the tall old house, till she reached the top floor and the
music-room. It was empty. She flung-to the door, and fumbled with the
stiff key. It turned at last, and she leaned back against the lock,
shaking and breathless, but with a sense of relief.
She was safe.... Not for long--they would be coming up soon--but long
enough for her purpose.
But first she must recover breath. It was foolish to tremble so. It only
hindered one ... when there was so little time to lose.
Hurriedly she sorted out her little pile of everyday clothes--some
irrelevant instinct insisting on the paramount necessity of changing
into them. Mrs. Denny would be annoyed if she spoiled the new costume.
She re-dressed hastily and, clasping her belt, crossed to the window.
It was tall and divided into three casements. The centre door was open.
A low seat ran round the bay. She climbed upon it and stood upright,
peering out.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account