Lesbians -- Fiction; Psychological fiction; Women teachers -- Fiction
"_Another way by which King John got money from the Jews was by
threatening them with torture. He was all-powerful. He could draw
their teeth, tooth by tooth, twist their thumbs, or leave them to
rot in dark, silent prisons. They could not do anything against
him. If he could not force them to yield up their treasure he would
have them burned, or cause them to be pressed to death. This is a
horrible torture. I read about a woman who was killed in this way
in the 'Hundred Best Books'; and there was a man in Good King
Charles's days whom they killed like this. It is the worst death of
any. They tie you down, so that you cannot move at all, and there
is a slab of stone that hangs a little above you. This sinks very
slowly, so that all the first day you just lie and stare at it and
wonder if it really moves. People come and give you food and laugh
at you. You are scarcely afraid, because it moves so little and you
think nobody could be really so cruel and hurt you so horribly, and
that you will be saved somehow. But all the time the stone is
sinking--sinking--and the day goes by and the night comes and they
leave you alone. And perhaps you go to sleep at last. You are
horribly tired, because of the weeks of fear that are behind you.
Perhaps you dream. You dream you are free and people love you, and
you have done nothing wrong and you are frightfully happy, and the
one you love most kisses your forehead. But then the kiss grows so
cold that you shrink away, only you cannot, and it presses you
harder and harder, and you wake up and it is the stone. It is the
sinking stone that is pressing you, pressing you, pressing you to
death--and you cannot move. And you shriek and shriek for help
within your gagged mouth, and no one comes, and always the stone is
pressing you, pressing you, pressing you_----"
Clare caught the exercise-book from Alwynne's hand and thrust it into
the heart of the half-dead fire. It lay unlighted, charring and
smouldering. The unformed handwriting stood out very clearly. Clare
caught at a matchbox, and tore it open; the matches showered out over
her hand on to the rug and grate. She struck one after another, breaking
them before they could light. Silently Alwynne took the box from her
shaking fingers, lit a match and held it to the twisting papers. A thin
little flame flickered up, overran them eagerly, wavered a second, and
died with a faint whistling sigh.
"Do you hear that? Did you see that?" Clare knelt upright on the hearth.
She held up her forefinger. "Listen! Like a voice! Like a child's voice!
A child sighing! Light the candles--light all the candles! I want light
everywhere. No room for any shadow."
But as Alwynne moved obediently, she caught at her hand.
"Alwynne! Stay with me! Don't go into another room. Alwynne, I'm
frightened of my thoughts."
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