Lesbians -- Fiction; Psychological fiction; Women teachers -- Fiction
"You'd better sit down," he said. "We've heaps to talk over yet, more
than you've a notion of. And if we're to have a row, let's get it over
in the open--far less dangerous. Never get to cover in a thunderstorm. I
know what you want." He had watched her fumbling unavailingly in the bag
and pocket and had chuckled. He knew his Alwynne. He produced a clean
silk handkerchief and dangled it before her. She clutched at it with
undignified haste.
"'Thank you,' first," he said, holding it firmly. A moment victory hung
in the balance. Then--
"Oh! Oh, thank you," said Alwynne, with fine unconcern, and secured it.
Their eyes met. It was impossible not to smile.
"At the same time," remarked Alwynne, a little later, "you've no right
to talk to me like that, Roger, whatever you choose to think. You're not
my cousin."
"I'm Elsbeth's. It strikes me she needs defending."
Alwynne laughed.
"You know I'm awfully fond of Elsbeth. You know I am. I am a beast
sometimes to her, you're quite right--but she doesn't really need
defending. Honestly."
"Not from you, I know. But frankly, without wanting to be rude to your
friend--I think she makes you careless of Elsbeth's feelings. Elsbeth
was awfully hurt this week, and she's the sort of dear one hates to see
hurt."
Alwynne looked at him wistfully.
"Roger," she said hesitatingly, "suppose some one were unkind to
me--hurt me--hurt me badly, very often, almost on purpose--would you
defend me? Would you care at all?"
"I shouldn't let 'em," he grunted.
"If you couldn't help it?"
"I shouldn't let 'em," he repeated doggedly.
"But should you care?"
"Of course I should. What rot you talk. Of course I should. But I
shouldn't let them."
"Oh, Roger," she cried, suddenly and pitifully, "they do hurt me
sometimes--they do, they do."
Roger looked around him with unusual caution. The Gardens were empty.
There was not even a loafer in sight. He put his arm round her, and drew
her clumsily to him. She yielded like a tired child, and lay quietly,
staring with brimming eyes at the gaudy tulip-bed on the further side
of the walk.
"I believe you're about fed up with that school of yours," he said,
after a time, as if he had not followed the allusion to Clare.
She nodded.
"I'm not lazy, Roger; you know it's not that. It's just the atmosphere,
and the awful crowding. Such a lot of women at close quarters, all
enthusiasm and fussing and importance. They're all hard-working, and all
unselfish and keen--more than a crowd of men would be, I believe. But
that's just it--they're dears when you get them alone, but somehow, all
together, they stifle you. And they all have high voices, that squeak
when they're keenest. D'you know, that was what first made me like you,
Roger--your voice? It's slow, and deep, and restful--such a reasonable
voice. You mustn't think me disloyal to the school. The girls are all
frightfully interesting, and the women are dears, and there's always
Clare--only we do get on each other's nerves."
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