Regina, or the Sins of the FathersSudermann, Hermann
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Regina, or the Sins of the Fathers
Sudermann, Hermann
Fiction
When he rose with cramped limbs, happy to have escaped falling asleep
and being frozen to death, one thin purple streak had appeared in the
eastern sky. An ague, hot and cold at the same time, like the beginning
of fever, shook his frame.
Now there was nothing for it, but to go home. But where was he to find
the strength necessary to obliterate for ever from his mind what had
happened in the night that was over at last? His tongue instinctively
felt for his lip.... The wound left by the impress of her kiss burned
there still.
And there had been no sign from Heaven, no miracle. One course only
remained that might save him from the worst, and that was death.
Death! The thought came to him like a ray of light in the darkness, yet
his brain was too weary, his soul too dispirited for him to grasp it,
and it died out as quickly as it had come.
In his own footprints he walked back to the village. No one was
stirring out of doors, but here and there a chimney smoked, and a cock
from his perch crowed a greeting to the new-born day.
As he took the path down to the river, he thought he saw the fleeting
shadow of a woman's figure hurrying from the drawbridge. Perhaps it was
Regina, who after long waiting and watching had now come to meet him.
But no! Regina was not so slim and dainty. Who in all the village could
want to come to the drawbridge at this unearthly hour? His heart beat
fast. He had been seen. A soft, squealing sound fell on the air, and
the next instant the figure had vanished down a bypath. He did not
think of following her. It might possibly be a dairymaid who had been
taking a morning dip, and was shy of meeting him; but on coming to the
drawbridge he saw footmarks on the freshly fallen hoarfrost, and these
came to an end at the pillar to which the letter-box was fixed.
Who could be his nocturnal correspondent? It was ridiculous, yet a
flood of hope suffused his soul.
He snatched the little key, that he always carried about with him, from
his pocket. The box opened--a letter fell out.
He broke the seal with shaking fingers. Helene's signature! Had God
heard his petition? Had He after all sent him fresh strength for the
struggle, and deliverance?
The dawn gave him sufficient light to read by, but the lines danced
before his eyes. Only here and there he drank in a broken sentence or a
single word--"Wait patiently." "The hour when I summon you to come to
me." "Longing." "Childhood's days." "Happy."
And one thing that was not written there at all he could read
distinctly. The sign that he had prayed for by the grave of the
warriors had fallen from Heaven. The miracle had happened!
Renewed confidence in himself possessed him. He was not forsaken; he
need not yet despair of his better self. This pure, bright angel, the
good genius of his youth, was still faithful, still believed in him.
Her trust should not be abused. Rather die than, through despising
himself, bring her to feeling shame at her faith in him.
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