Regina, or the Sins of the FathersSudermann, Hermann
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Regina, or the Sins of the Fathers
Sudermann, Hermann
Fiction
He gazed at the distant prospect, and sought the outline of the ruins
against the horizon. But nothing was visible except the tall trees that
crowned the park, which were only dimly discernible. A little behind to
the right of them lay the Cats' Bridge.
He could fancy her emerging from those trees with the troop of
remorselessly cruel Frenchmen following her, bent on their work of
blood. How terrible must the regular echo of their marching feet have
sounded in her ears. Deeper and deeper into the wood they must have
gone, till they reached that ravine which ran parallel with the
thicket, almost in a half-circle. She had never told him the road she
had taken, but he saw exactly how it had all happened. Everything was
as plain as if he had been there himself and seen it with his own eyes.
He stretched out his arm, and with a trembling finger traced the path
against the horizon.
And afterwards when they let her go, and she had made her way home
alone, with the wages of her sin in her pocket--how the cracking
of bullets, the beating of drums, the clouds of gunpowder, the
death-shrieks of the massacred, must have followed her, galloping at
her heels like an army of furies!
How she had gone on living with those awful sounds ringing in her head,
those ghastly pictures floating before her eyes, he could not
understand. If he had been in her place he would have sought instant
deliverance in the first halter or pond that came handy.
But not she! Visions were no terror to her. Her conscience, instead of
tormenting itself, was apparently scarcely conscious of its guilt. She
had only the feelings of an animal or a demon. He shuddered. And it was
to her, _her_, that he had been on the brink of succumbing!
Then in his sore distress he flung himself across the grave, face
downwards in the snow, folded his hands and stammered forth an
incoherent prayer, while tears gushed from his eyes.
The intense cold of his exposed position stung his face, and drove him
to stand up again. He patrolled the row of graves, unable to evolve a
single rational thought. He felt as if he were caught in a brazen net,
that was drawing its meshes tighter and tighter around him.
"God in Heaven," he cried aloud, "visit not the sins of the fathers on
me! Let the dead sleep.... _I_ have not murdered them. Let something
happen, a miracle, a sign, that I may be shown that Thou wilt not have
me perish in this anguish of despair." He cast his eye round him as if
looking for help.
But coldly and unsympathetically the moonlit, lead-coloured sky looked
down on him. There was no sign, no miracle.
He laughed. "You are becoming imbecile," he murmured inwardly.
An unspeakable exhaustion overwhelmed him. He reeled, and his feet gave
way beneath him. The next moment he was sitting in the cavity which the
weight of his prostrate figure had made in the snow. He drew up the
collar of his coat, and nearly frozen, brooded on, half sleeping, half
waking.
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