Regina, or the Sins of the FathersSudermann, Hermann
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Regina, or the Sins of the Fathers
Sudermann, Hermann
Fiction
"I learnt at the parsonage, _Herr_," she replied. "Helene had a
class----" She paused, embarrassed, for at the sound of the beloved
name, which he heard for the first time from her lips--such lips--he
winced as if from the lash of a whip. She took his excitement for
anger, and added apologetically, "I mean the Pastor's daughter."
"Never mind," he said, controlling himself with difficulty. "Go to bed
now."
That night Boleslav fought a severe battle with himself. He felt as if
his ideal of exalted purity had been polluted since his eyes had rested
with favour on this abandoned woman. And he himself was polluted too by
that involuntary caress.
It was absolutely necessary to regain his peace of mind and purity. He
must come to some distinct understanding with Helene without delay, in
order that he might be strengthened in his struggle against his
treacherous senses and benumbing doubt.
So urgent did it seem that his resolutions should at once be put into
force, that he rose in the middle of the night, and by the glimmer of
his night-light wrote to Helene assuring her of his undying love and
eternal devotion, and imploring her to make some sign to show that she
stood by him in trouble as she had once done in happiness, so that he
might know for certain it was worth while his continuing to wage for
her sake the fight against such enormous odds. With every line he
wrote, his anxiety lessened, and when he lay down in his bed again, he
felt that, through bracing his energies for the task, he had relieved
himself of a load of care that had long heavily oppressed him.
"Can you undertake, Regina," he asked the next evening, "to deliver
this letter unseen to the _Fräulein_ at the parsonage?"
She regarded him for a second with wide eyes, then looking down, she
murmured, "Yes, _Herr_."
"But supposing they attack you down in the village?"
"Pah! What do I care for _them_?" she exclaimed, shrugging her
shoulders contemptuously, as she always did when the villagers were in
question.
Soon afterwards he saw her glide by the window like a shadow and
disappear in the gloaming.
Hours passed. She did not return. He began to reproach himself for
having engaged her in his amatory mission when her life was at stake.
At last, towards midnight, he heard the front door latch click.
She appeared on the threshold with chattering teeth, blue with cold,
the letter still grasped in her cramped fingers.
He made her sit down by the stove, and gave her Spanish wine to
drink--and gradually she found her voice.
"I have been lying all this time in the snow under the parsonage
hedge," she said, "but there was no possibility of getting at her. Just
now she put the light out in her bedroom, so I came home. But don't be
vexed, _Herr_. Perhaps I shall have better luck to-morrow."
He wouldn't hear of her repeating the adventure, but when she came to
him the following evening equipped for her walk, he did not forbid her
to go.
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