Old Doctor Jewett said to Margot Asquith, “You must believe in God
in spite of what the clergy say.” And truly I don’t think that any
man who has worked in downtown New York can be much of an atheist. In
that great jungle of violent life, under the glittering spires of such
steep cathedrals, he must inevitably be a trifle mad. Even Manhattan,
supposed to be most material of cities, is best known for the fantastic
figure she cuts against the sky. The loveliest picture I ever saw of
her profile was a photograph given me by an amateur lensman who caught
it by accident. It shows that uneven scarp of buildings in soft masses
of dark and shadow, looming on a queerly pebbled and fuscous twilight,
like an eclipse. And this, as my astonished friend learned from his
film-dealer, was an accident, due to mildew on the gelatin. So some
of the most lovely visions of reality are printed on minds that are
mildewed. The madman and the nincompoop often see more beauty than
the sane and solid cit. The only possible suggestion that one might
humbly venture to offer to the authoritative officers of Holy Church
is that they are too sane and too businesslike. They ask us to believe
not things that are too hard, but too easy. They are too eager to lock
the stable door after the Messiah has been stolen. They have learned
the tricks of our world of flesh so glibly that they seem sometimes to
forget the manners of that world of spirit they are commissioned to
represent.
For the world is fascinating and painful beyond human power of
testimony. The best of every life is unprintable. If one were given
five minutes’ warning before sudden death, five minutes to say what
it had all meant to us, every telephone-booth would be occupied by
people trying to call up other people to stammer that they loved them.
You would want to tell a whole lot of people that you love them, but
had been too clumsy and too shy to admit it. And the newspaper man
himself, who both loves and hates his queer trade, would be the first
to remember that one always is severest with what one adores. Every
movement is set in some strange turning of wonder. As a man will
suddenly discover in himself some miserable petty trick of behaviour
which, he painfully realizes, is a true microcosm and characteristic
of his life as a whole, so now and then with the world at large. We
are aware of lights and shadows and moments of millennium that seem
a part of some vast consistency. You know the thrill of a letter or
parcel that comes from some one you are fond of, far away. As you
undo the string, you say, foolishly, but with a genuine quaver of
sentiment, “When that was tied up, So-and-so handled it!” Well, there
are instants of preposterous happiness, clear insight, that are just
like that--little packages of reality, tied up in the twine of our time
sense, that come to us direct, intact, from the eternity and infinity
we call God. It matters little how you explain that great word to
yourself.
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