From the sight of Love that is higher than pain comes the sight of Love that is deeper than sin. Julian had had the mystical shewing that God is all that is good,[6] and is only good, is the life of all that is, and doeth all that is done, and she had reasoned, as others before her had reasoned, that therefore "sin hath no substance" and "sin is no deed." But perhaps it is those that are most concerned with God in creature things, that suffer most shaking from the sight of evil. Those that seek God's Kingdom in this present world, finding "the dark places of the earth" full of the habitations of cruelty, have continually the enemy as with a sword in their bones saying within them: "Where is now thy God?" "I saw," says Julian, "that He is in all things. I beheld and considered, with a soft dread, and thought: _What is sin?_" (xi.). So also it is immediately after the coming of the mystical Shewing made "yet more highly": "_It is I, it is I, it is I that am all_," that the memory of her own experience is brought to her and she sees how in her longings after God, who is all the time so close about us, around us and within,--she had always been hindered from seeing and reaching Him fully by the darkening, disturbing power of sin. "And so I looked generally upon us all, and methought: _If sin had not been, we should have all been clean, and like to our Lord as He made us_" (xxvii.). Thus came again the stirring of that old question over which "afore this time often I wondered," with "mourning and sorrow," "why the beginning of sin was not letted--for then, methought, all should have been well." To this darkness, crying to God, the light came first as by a soft general dawning of comfort for faith. "_Sin is behoveable_ (it behoved that sin should be suffered to rise) _but all shall be well, and all shall be well, and all manner of things shall be well._" Yet Julian, unable to take comfort to her heart over that which was still so dark to her intellect, stands "beholding things general, troublously and mourning," saying thus in her thoughts: "_Ah good Lord, how might all be_ well, for the great hurt that is come by sin to the creature?" (xxix.).