Reveries of a Bachelor; or, A Book of the HeartMitchell, Donald Grant
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Reveries of a Bachelor; or, A Book of the Heart
Mitchell, Donald Grant
American essays -- 19th century
None of the playing sparkle in this love, which belongs to the flame of
my sea-coal fire that is now dancing, lively as a cricket. But on
looking about my garret chamber, I can see nothing that resembles the
archangel Raphael, or “thy fair Eve.”
There is a degree of moisture about the sea-coal flame, which with the
most earnest of my musing, I find it impossible to attach to that idea
of a waving sparkling heart which my fire suggests. A damp heart must be
a foul thing to be sure. But whoever heard of one?
Wordsworth somewhere in the _Excursion_ says:
The good die first,
And they whose hearts are _dry_ as summer dust
Burn to the socket!
What, in the name of Rydal Mount, is a dry heart? A dusty one, I can
conceive of: a bachelor’s heart must be somewhat dusty, as he nears the
sixtieth summer of his pilgrimage—and hung over with cobwebs, in which
sit such watchful gray old spiders as avarice, and selfishness, forever
on the lookout for such bottle-green flies as lust.
“I will never”—said I—gripping at the elbows of my chair—“live a
bachelor till sixty—never, so surely as there is hope in man, or charity
in woman, or faith in both!”
And with that thought my heart leaped about in playful coruscations,
even like the flame of the sea-coal—rising, and wrapping round old and
tender memories and images that were present to me—trying to cling, and
yet no sooner fastened than off—dancing again, riotous in its
exultation—a succession of heart-sparkles, blazing, and going out!
—And is there not—mused I—a portion of this world forever blazing in
just such lively sparkles, waving here and there as the air-currents fan
them?
Take, for instance, your heart of sentiment, and quick sensibility, a
weak, warm-working heart, flying off in tangents of unhappy influence,
unguided by prudence, and perhaps virtue. There is a paper by Mackenzie,
in the _Mirror_ for April, 1780, which sets this untoward sensibility in
a strong light.
And the more it is indulged, the more strong and binding such a habit of
sensibility becomes. Poor Mackenzie himself must have suffered thus; you
can not read his books without feeling it; your eye, in spite of you,
runs over with his sensitive griefs, while you are half-ashamed of his
success at picture-making. It is a terrible inheritance; and one that a
strong man or woman will study to subdue: it is a vain sea-coal
sparkling, which will count no good. The world is made of much hard,
flinty substance, against which your better and holier thoughts will be
striking fire—see to it that the sparks do not burn you!
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