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“That’s it, Jane.”
“Oh, you’ll make me love you! How can I help but love you? My heart
must be stone. But—oh, Lassiter, wait, wait! Give me time. I’m not what
I was. Once it was so easy to love. Now it’s easy to hate. Wait! My
faith in God—_some_ God—still lives. By it I see happier times for you,
poor passion-swayed wanderer! For me—a miserable, broken woman. I loved
your sister Milly. I _will_ love you. I can’t have fallen so low—I
can’t be so abandoned by God—that I’ve no love left to give you. Wait!
Let us forget Milly’s sad life. Ah, I knew it as no one else on earth!
There’s one thing I shall tell you—if you are at my death-bed, but I
can’t speak now.”
“I reckon I don’t want to hear no more,” said Lassiter.
Jane leaned against him, as if some pent-up force had rent its way out,
she fell into a paroxysm of weeping. Lassiter held her in silent
sympathy. By degrees she regained composure, and she was rising,
sensible of being relieved of a weighty burden, when a sudden start on
Lassiter’s part alarmed her.
“I heard hosses—hosses with muffled hoofs!” he said; and he got up
guardedly.
“Where’s Fay?” asked Jane, hurriedly glancing round the shady knoll.
The bright-haired child, who had appeared to be close all the time, was
not in sight.
“Fay!” called Jane.
No answering shout of glee. No patter of flying feet. Jane saw Lassiter
stiffen.
“_Fay—oh—Fay!_” Jane almost screamed.
The leaves quivered and rustled; a lonesome cricket chirped in the
grass, a bee hummed by. The silence of the waning afternoon breathed
hateful portent. It terrified Jane. When had silence been so infernal?
“She’s—only—strayed—out—of earshot,” faltered Jane, looking at
Lassiter.
Pale, rigid as a statue, the rider stood, not in listening, searching
posture, but in one of doomed certainty. Suddenly he grasped Jane with
an iron hand, and, turning his face from her gaze, he strode with her
from the knoll.
“See—Fay played here last—a house of stones an’ sticks.... An’ here’s a
corral of pebbles with leaves for hosses,” said Lassiter, stridently,
and pointed to the ground. “Back an’ forth she trailed here.... See,
she’s buried somethin’—a dead grasshopper—there’s a tombstone... here
she went, chasin’ a lizard—see the tiny streaked trail... she pulled
bark off this cottonwood... look in the dust of the path—the letters
you taught her—she’s drawn pictures of birds en’ hosses an’ people....
Look, a cross! Oh, Jane, _your_ cross!”
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