Christina sank back in her chair and rested her eyes on the cracked
and polished slabs of the pavement. At last, looking up, “You have not
forgotten, I suppose, that you told me he was engaged?”
“By no means.”
“He is still engaged, then?”
“To the best of my belief.”
“And yet you desire that, as you say, he should be made happy by
something I can do for him?”
“What I desire is this. That your great influence with him should
be exerted for his good, that it should help him and not retard him.
Understand me. You probably know that your lovers have rather a restless
time of it. I can answer for two of them. You don’t know your own mind
very well, I imagine, and you like being admired, rather at the expense
of the admirer. Since we are really being frank, I wonder whether I
might not say the great word.”
“You need n’t; I know it. I am a horrible coquette.”
“No, not a horrible one, since I am making an appeal to your generosity.
I am pretty sure you cannot imagine yourself marrying my friend.”
“There ‘s nothing I cannot imagine! That is my trouble.”
Rowland’s brow contracted impatiently. “I cannot imagine it, then!” he
affirmed.
Christina flushed faintly; then, very gently, “I am not so bad as you
think,” she said.
“It is not a question of badness; it is a question of whether
circumstances don’t make the thing an extreme improbability.”
“Worse and worse. I can be bullied, then, or bribed!”
“You are not so candid,” said Rowland, “as you pretend to be. My feeling
is this. Hudson, as I understand him, does not need, as an artist, the
stimulus of strong emotion, of passion. He’s better without it; he’s
emotional and passionate enough when he ‘s left to himself. The sooner
passion is at rest, therefore, the sooner he will settle down to work,
and the fewer emotions he has that are mere emotions and nothing more,
the better for him. If you cared for him enough to marry him, I should
have nothing to say; I would never venture to interfere. But I strongly
suspect you don’t, and therefore I would suggest, most respectfully,
that you should let him alone.”
“And if I let him alone, as you say, all will be well with him for ever
more?”
“Not immediately and not absolutely, but things will be easier. He will
be better able to concentrate himself.”
“What is he doing now? Wherein does he dissatisfy you?”
“I can hardly say. He ‘s like a watch that ‘s running down. He is moody,
desultory, idle, irregular, fantastic.”
“Heavens, what a list! And it ‘s all poor me?”
“No, not all. But you are a part of it, and I turn to you because you
are a more tangible, sensible, responsible cause than the others.”
Christina raised her hand to her eyes, and bent her head thoughtfully.
Rowland was puzzled to measure the effect of his venture; she rather
surprised him by her gentleness. At last, without moving, “If I were to
marry him,” she asked, “what would have become of his fiancee?”
“I am bound to suppose that she would be extremely unhappy.”
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