England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Guardian and ward -- Fiction; Physicians -- Fiction; Single men -- Fiction
All went well for a few days. And then Ronnie, against my counsel, and
also against Rose’s, which usually prevailed, joined a party on a
bobsleigh, and was carried into the hotel, an hour later, with a
fractured leg and a vast variety of bruises. I let the Fergussons know,
assuring them that there was no danger, and together Rose and I, with the
assistance of a nurse, got him through. He was fairly patient, but his
disappointment was acute, and now and then under his weakness he broke
down. More than once I went into the room to find Rose soothing him as
though he were a baby. All his dependence came out, to be met by all her
tenderness. I had not thought she possessed such hidden stores of it.
I must confess to feeling miserably out in the cold most of the time, for
Ronnie, though he was as gay as possible with me, and brave enough under
the pain that his dressings inflicted, was happy only with Rose, and I
could not fail to see it. And he exacted far too much attention from
her. I hardly had any of her company. She could not do this or that
because Ronnie might want her; Ronnie would be lonely; she had promised
Ronnie to read to him; she had sworn that when he woke up, no matter at
what time, he should find her beside him. I admired her sense of
duty—and resented it too!
After a fortnight the Fergussons joined us, to supervise their son’s
recovery, and Rose and I went home, for she had her school and I my
practice; but I was conscious that not all of her was with me in the
train; and Ronnie’s parting from her, I realised, had been too emotional.
Suddenly he had kissed her as though his heart was breaking, and she had
almost to be torn away.
I have seen so many sick men under the influence of gratitude to their
nurses that I did not lay very much stress on this incident; but I could
not forget it. I wished, however, that Rose should, and during the
journey back I did all that I could to distract her. She was very quiet
at first, but gradually became more like herself, and by the time we
reached home and she began to prepare for school she seemed usually, at
any rate when with me, natural again and free from care. But away from
me? And when she was day-dreaming? It was at these times that I
realized again and bitterly how finite is our understanding of each
other. We live alone! I would have given anything to be able to
penetrate her thoughts, and help. But I could not.
Was she in love or merely reflective? Was she looking back or forward?
I longed to know, but could not ask.
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