England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Guardian and ward -- Fiction; Physicians -- Fiction; Single men -- Fiction
“No,” she said. “It wasn’t me that I wanted you to look at, but the man
behind me.”
It is strange what effect the most ordinary words can sometimes have!
Rose’s were casual enough, but my heart absolutely stopped for a moment
and a mist crossed my brain. God knows I did not want to keep this child
from marriage; her engagement would even be a blessing in disguise, for
it would bring her back to her home; but her remark none the less was
like a knell.
And yet she had told me nothing! Nothing—and to the fearful swift
apprehension of a jealous foster-father, everything!
I pulled myself together and examined the man: tall, regular-featured,
with a high forehead due more to thinning hair than to formation of
skull. Eyeglasses. His general expression suggested a somewhat
condescending benignity, with assurance. I didn’t like him.
“Who is it?” I asked.
“His name is Eustace Holt,” Rose said. “He wants me to marry him.”
“Yes?” I heard my voice say.
“I rather think I shall.”
I had no more words. I drew her to me and kissed her hair. The action,
I suppose, implied a kind of possessive protectiveness. I had wondered
vaguely how I should behave when the news broke: and this was the way!
After a long silence Rose went on to say that he was a barrister; had
been a private tutor for a while after leaving Oxford, but was now at the
Bar and beginning to do well in chamber practice. Not an advocate.
I looked at the photograph again. Probably I should have been cool about
any young man who had captured Rose’s heart, knowing so well that none
could be worthy; but to this one I felt positive hostility. He had the
effect of filling me with a sudden warm rush of affection for Ronnie.
“Well?” Rose said.
She knew me sufficiently to discern a want of sympathy; but I hope that I
succeeded in concealing the greater part of my antagonism. You see, I
was still a liar. Not all my intimacy with Rose and admiration for her
candour had cured me. Perhaps had I said, “My dear, I hate the sight of
the man: he looks priggish: do promise me to do nothing about it for six
months,” it might have changed her life. At any rate it could have done
no harm, and it would have had the additional merit of expressing a
truth. But I couldn’t. For one thing, I had not the courage to be
destructive about her own choice, when the romance was still so young;
for another, I had not the right. She had seen the man and loved the
man, or thought she did; and all the ground for my sudden prejudice was a
tiny snapshot.
“Well?” said Rose.
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