As upon their first greeting, the man bowed ceremoniously, barely
touching the fingers proffered. She sighed, sank into her chair again,
then turned and smiled determinedly upon her niece with the air of one
dismissing the subject. Bethune felt well enough that he too was being
dismissed; but he took a step forward and stood looking down upon her.
"I do not think you quite understand," he said. "I cannot do this work
without your help, Lady Gerardine."
"My help!"
"I am exceedingly sorry to be so tiresome"—his manner betrayed a curious
mixture of patience and irritation—"but you see, that without the papers
in your possession my task would be futile. I could not possibly do the
work justice."
"The papers in my possession!" She echoed the words as helplessly as
before.
"The papers in your possession," he repeated. "His letters to you, the
journal he wrote during the siege, his notes, his whole correspondence—I
brought them all back and sent them to you myself—afterwards. And you,
you did receive them? You were too ill to see me, I was told, but your
friends undertook that you should have them."
She was gazing at him, now, with wide eyes growing darker and deeper
every moment. The colour rushed up to her face, then faded away,
leaving it paler even than before. Her stricken look made him feel like
a brute; yet the sheer perversity of her attitude exasperated him. At
last:
"You want me to give you these papers?" she exclaimed, with a cry.
He sat down on the chair next her; and, like one endeavouring to make a
fractious child hear reason, began to explain his meaning to her.
"I should not presume," he said, "to suggest that you should confide to
me writings which can concern only yourself and him. He was a reserved
man, and, though he was the best friend, the only friend I ever had, and
I perhaps his closest, I should not dream of intruding upon his private
life, now—now that he is dead. God forbid! But I want you to help, I
want you to give me every necessary extract which concerns his soldier’s
life—that life which was such an example to all Englishmen—which I feel
it should be given to England to know, as freely as it was laid down for
her. Why, there is not even a cairn of stones to mark his grave! Mark
his grave? Why, even that grave has been denied to us! But we can yet
raise a monument to him that our country may know her dead."
His cold somewhat grating voice deepened into a note of such tenderness
that Baby wondered in her childish mind. She did not know that a man
could so love and mourn a friend. Lady Gerardine had leant back in her
chair, her hands clasping the arms. Bethune saw her revolving the
question in her mind with such pallid suffering upon her features that
he felt torn between anger and a sort of unwilling pity. Her lips moved:
"It is impossible."
He thought he could not have heard aright.
"I beg your pardon?"
"It is impossible."
"Lady Gerardine...!"
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