They continued to sit in decorous silence, looking with vacant faces
straight before them, till the next performer appeared. This was Elise
Fortier, whom they were both prepared to detest because of her father
and mother and brother. They did detest her, everything about her from
her thin, dry hair, frizzed out to imitate abundance, to her shifty eyes
exactly like her mother's, from her stooping shoulders, to her long bony
hands, which clattered out loudly the Schubert Marche Militaire. When
she had finished, "Really quite a talent," observed Mme. Garnier taking
pains to be audible; and, "Remarkable for her age," agreed Jean-Pierre.
He was relaxing morally, in an inexpressible ease at finding his head
clear, his heart at rest. To own yourself, to look at life from behind a
stout wall of critical cynicism--it was to be in safety at last! He
barely glanced at the next player, a nondescript, precocious child, who
murdered a Moment Musical, her short thin legs dangling from the stool.
And the next, the one who played the Liebestraum, a tall young lady with
the self-admiring graces and manners of an opera singer on the concert
platform. He looked at his watch again and wondered how long it would be
before the stupid school performance would be over, and he could get
away for an aperitif at the Cafe du Grand Bouleau on the Place d'Armes
and an evening with----
He saw that another player was coming forward, a slim tall girl with
thick shining dark hair held back by a white ribbon like the others. She
stood for an instant to bow to the audience before sitting down at the
piano, and he could look up full into her unconscious face, gazing out
over his head impersonally with shy, liquid, dark eyes. She was
breathing a little rapidly, her young breast rising and falling under
the filmy white of her dress. A timid propitiatory smile curved her
sensitive mouth and arched her long, finely-drawn eyebrows.
Not a muscle of Jean-Pierre's face changed; every line of his careless,
confident attitude froze taut as it was. And underneath this motionless
exterior, he felt his heart hotly, joyfully weeping in a passion of
thanksgiving, like a frightened lost child who has come into the right
way. He lost all sense of connection with his body and yearning,
worshipping, clamoring, imperiously calling, humbly beseeching, he gazed
out from the bars of his immobile, well-dressed external self at the
girl sitting before the piano. Two years, two long years of exile, how
could life ever make up to him for those two lost years? How he had
starved! His famished eyes fed ravenously on what they saw, the supple,
elastic slimness of the young body, the fine, thin ankle and shapely
foot, the creamy forearm, the agile, strong, white fingers, so bravely
flinging out harmonies beyond the comprehension of the smooth broad
brow, inviolate, intact, innocent, ignorant, which bent its full child's
curve over the keys.
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