From the wings trudged in a red-cheeked young girl, with a large bust,
and brawny rough arms, hanging down over her starched white dress.
Behind her trotted a short withered elderly woman, a black silk waist
crossed over her flat chest, her scanty gray hair smoothed down in thin
bandeaux over her ears. They sat down before the piano, opened the
music, carried by the older woman, waited till she had adjusted drooping
eye-glasses on her high thin nose, and had peeringly found her place.
Then the young girl began to pound out the Raindrop Prelude while the
other turned over the pages.
The audience preserved a respectful silence, bestowing a minute
attention on the hang of the player's skirt, the fit of her bodice, the
crimped waves of her light brown hair, her over-plump hands, and the
bulging patent-leather shoes, which she pressed nervously up and down on
the pedals.
Something seemed to break and clear away in Jean-Pierre's head, like
fumes drifting away from a shattered retort. So this was a school-girl,
this solid, unformed lump of human flesh, neither child nor woman, who
had lost a child's poetry and had not yet come to woman's seductiveness.
He looked coolly at the girl (his mother whispered her name, the younger
sister of a lycee friend of his), dissecting her with his eyes,
immeasurably relieved. Was it for an amorphous creature like this, too
old to kiss on the cheek, too young to kiss on the mouth, that he had
suffered? Why, it was nothing; a mere morbid whim of his ignorant
boyhood. How right Maman had been in making Papa send him away from it!
He had grown to be a man without realizing it, a man of the world, in no
danger of losing his head over chits.
The Prelude was finished. The player got to her feet, and bowed
self-consciously to the muted thuddings of gloved palms on gloved palms
which greeted the cessation of her activities. She got herself off the
stage, walking heavily in her too-tight slippers. Jean-Pierre, who sat
at one side could see a little behind the scenes and observed that as
soon as she thought she was out of sight of the audience, she gave way
to childish relief that the ordeal was over, and skipped forward,
running. He suppressed a supercilious smile of aesthetic scorn. Her body,
as large and heavy as a woman's, no longer expressed the impulses of the
child she still was. She skipped clumsily, with an inelastic energy of
gesture like a cow capering in a spring-time pasture. Jean-Pierre felt
the keenest pleasure in his ruthless perception of her lack of grace.
This was emancipation!
"She plays very nicely," murmured his mother, on the general chance that
some member of her family might be sitting within earshot.
"Yes, very agreeably," he concurred.
Neither of them had heard a note of the music.
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