his breath failed him and he was silent. Over there beyond that wide
expanse of lapping water lay the world with its houses and railways, its
business, its spider-web of human relations. Here in the shadow they
were alone together.
"But now I only hear
Its melancholy, long withdrawing roar,
Retreating to the breath
Of the night-wind, down the vast edges drear
And naked shingles of the world."
He stopped. Now that he had come to what he wished to say, he dared not.
"Don't you know the rest?" asked the girl softly.
"Yes," said Neale huskily, "I know it."
She waited for him to go on, and when he did not, she said, "Well, no
matter. I know it too."
She stood beside him in the blue twilight, her fair head raised, her
eyes looking far over the water. Neale was certain that she too was
silently repeating,
"Ah, love, let us be true
To one another! for the world, which seems
To lie before us like a land of dreams,
So various, so beautiful, so new,
Hath really neither joy, nor love, nor light,
Nor certitude, nor peace, nor help for pain;
And we are here as on a darkling plain
Swept with confused alarms of struggle and flight,
Where ignorant armies clash by night."
The great day was over. The Yew Tree had been planted and orated over.
The scared Valedictorian had stumbled through as much of his speech as
he could remember. Neale, with a hundred other Seniors had stood up and
received the degree of Bachelor of Arts, which the President,
"By-the-authority-in-him-vested" scattered broadcast over them. Neale
was through with college. College was through with Neale.
Father and Mother were there, come up specially from the other side of
the Equator, though Father tried to pretend that business had brought
him north. They strolled about the campus, went downtown and had
luncheon together, all three outwardly calm in the traditional
Crittenden manner, in spite of the emotion boiling under the surface of
their little family party.
What boiled hardest under Neale's surface was a great haste to find his
place in the business-world, to begin to make money, to have something
to offer Martha. Before he had met Martha he had had dreams of asking to
go back to college for a Master's Degree--in anything, just to go on
with the studies he had found so interesting, to play football again, to
sit, care-free, smoking his pipe and talking philosophy with Gregg. But
even in his dreams he had felt that all that was only a little boy's
scheme to dodge real life. And now he felt no sympathy with dreams. He
wanted to get out and tackle real life with all his strength. He smarted
under the feeling that he had no right to speak to Martha.
So when Mother went up to her room to rest from the strain of throttling
her feelings down to her men-folks' standard of outward calm, and he and
Father went into the lobby to light cigars, he said at once, "Father, I
want to start in to-morrow to hustle for a job."
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