She had decided to walk so that she could cool off, and think over the
Vallerys' manoeuver, and as she walked she had it out with herself,
going deep. By the end of the first mile she knew it was foolish and
futile to resent the afternoon's comedy. That was the sort of thing
everybody tried to do, only few people were as successful as Mme.
Vallery. She knew well enough what she would get, if she pelted right in
on them now, as they sat laughing over their little triumph. They would
never dream of denying it, any more than she or her father would deny
being the author of a far-laid plan in chess, which led to an opponent's
defeat.
It was all a part of the game, and she might as well make up her mind to
it, and renew her determination to keep out of the game as far as she
personally was concerned. They were no worse than other people, only
more intelligent and more interesting. She could tell, to the very turn
of the phrase, what Mme. Vallery would say to her if she should have the
crassness to go in and make a scene.
"My dear child, no power on earth can protect naivete! It is a lamb
whose wool belongs to the best shearer. Let her sharpen her wits, your
young friend. She'll need to, sooner or later. It ought to have been the
best of practice for her, a little skirmish like the one we just
furnished her. She would do well to practise before she gets into a
serious skirmish with somebody who _really_ wants something out of her.
What is this fete-de-charite for? To please me? Not at all. To make some
money for poor people, mothers and anaemic babies. Show me another woman
in our circle who puts herself out as much as I do for the poor! Your
pretty friend has more money than is good for her. I'm only securing a
little of it for the needy."
That was true, too, thought Marise. Mme. Vallery really did a lot of
good, and very unostentatiously. If people were only far enough beneath
her in intelligence and social position and money, she would do anything
for them, very simply, in the nicest sort of way. And if she took a
rather horrid delight in making fools of people more pretentious, what
had Marise to reproach her with--she who could not refrain from
malicious teasing! It was part of the same thing. Everything was part of
the same thing. And the same thing always turned out to be very much the
same. Also, Mme. Vallery had really always been very kind to Marise,
seemed really fond of her, had given her innumerable opportunities which
otherwise she would never....
"What does she want to get out of _me_?" Marise suddenly asked herself,
struck by a sudden suspicion and wondering why she had never thought of
this before.
Pondering this, unpeeling another layer, an acrid odor in her nostrils,
she struck out into a longer, swifter gait, at her old futile trick of
trying to hurry away from what was inside her heart.
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