"Not so bad for the old lady, hein?" she said, well-pleased with herself
and with Marise's dazzled look.
Marise attempted no thanks, no comment. Silently, like a person
hypnotized she took the proffered cup, nodding her desire for two lumps
and lemon; and silently, like a person hypnotized she listened to Madame
de la Cueva's monologue. The music like a rich wine had unloosed the
musician's tongue. In a mood like this she "turned the faucet and it
ran."
"My little one," she said fondly to Marise, "my little one, so here you
are on the beach ready to take the plunge--twenty-one to-day! And your
poor old de la Cueva will not be here to advise you. Oh well, there's
only one mistake that is worse than giving advice, and that is taking
it. Never take anybody's advice, my darling, nobody's at all."
She drank the half of her cup of tea, not by any means noiselessly,
wiped her mustache with the tiny, beautifully fine, embroidered
tea-napkin, and hanging lovingly over the plate of patisseries, chose
the fluffiest with a sigh of satisfaction.
"The only thing not to do, the only mistake possible to make, is to
stand shivering on the beach, not to plunge in and breast the waves.
Breast the waves!" she showed by a wide gesture of her powerful arm what
she meant.
"And you can't swim with anything or anybody hanging around your neck.
The moment they begin to weigh on you ... p-f-f-t! off with them!
Nothing you can do will help people who can't swim themselves. They'll
only drag you down with them.
"My dear child, remember this, that if there is an element in life
hateful to the free human soul it is what is called permanence. The only
permanent thing any human being should recognize is his tomb. From
everything else he must climb out and go on, go on.
"Above all, beware of permanence in love. It is a paradox ever to speak
of love and permanence in the same breath. Life and death! They cannot
exist together. Women as a rule, all women who are not artists, make
their mistakes in that way. You are a woman now, and an artist, it is
the duty of an older woman and an artist to warn you against it. The
only way not to be a life-long victim of men is to take love as they
it ... for the pleasure. Men wish nothing from love but their pleasure.
It is a vain and foolish striving to try and give them more, or to try
and get more from them."
She took another eclair and said on a softer note, "I don't deny that
women are more naturally given to the folly of seeking permanence in
love than men. I myself have a weakness in that direction." Marise
looked down into her cup to hide an involuntary smile at this. "Each
time I love, the illusion is that it is now for eternity. Each time the
wrench costs me tears.... You saw my tears, my dear!
"No, the only thing to do is to use it, as men do, to feed one's art.
You heard how superbly I played that Liszt! That is Georges, that is the
new flame leaping up from a lamp that was burning out!"
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