She poured another cup, and seasoned it with care. Marise ventured to
say mildly, "I'm afraid I'm rather cold. I don't ... I haven't ever
cared much for men."
Madame de la Cueva shook her head, "Every unawakened girl thinks that.
And once in a while there is a monster born, sometimes a man, more often
a woman, who is born really cold--like a born half-wit or a two-headed
cat. But any one of experience can feel them in the room, as you feel a
snake. _You_ are not cold, my darling. No one who can play The Tragica
as you do, is cold. You are only a child. You Anglo-Saxons take so long
to ripen. But all the better for your technique--that quaint
prolongation of infancy. But _now_," she put down her cup and looked at
Marise deeply and masterfully, "now your infancy has lasted long enough.
In with you! Dive from the nearest rock! Head over heels! I shall hear
the splash from across the world and rejoice."
Marise laughed a little nervously, partly because she was amused and
partly because she was excited. That great mass of personality,
radiating magnetism, would excite a statue on a tomb, she thought to
herself, even though you didn't at all share her tastes, or like the
things she did.
"And when I say, 'in with you,' I don't mean any of the sentimental
slip-noose business of becoming a house-mother with children--oh,
whatever else, my dear, no children. The only artists who can afford to
have children are men, because men never really love their children and
can abandon them at any time they need to. No woman can do that. Even
_I_ could never have done that!
"You see, carissima mea, in love a man always keeps most of himself for
himself, as in everything else. You must do the same if you are not to
be cheated in every bargain that life offers you. It is a hard lesson to
learn. It will cost you many tears. But tears are valuable. You cannot
live and be an artist, without tears. Shed them freely and you will see
how you will grow."
She looked at her watch, "I expect Georges at five," she explained, and
swept on to her peroration, "Remember, think of all I tell you when your
wise old friend who knows life is far away. Remember! None of your
Anglo-Saxon nonsense about trying to get along without sex-life. Take
it, take all you need of it, but keep it separate from your real life as
a man does, and it will never poison or embitter you." She laughed a
little, triumphantly, "You will _do_ all the embittering instead of
enduring it. You have beauty. You can buy anything you want with it, if
you learn how to use it. You have what will advance you more than any
talent for music! You have a nice talent, but you will go ten times as
far as a woman with a big nose and poor hair. Make your brain a little
mint, my darling, coin your good looks into legal tender, and buy
success."
She kissed the girl and dismissed her, with another look at her watch
and then into the mirror.
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