She lifted her face to the huge open circle at the center of the dome
high over her head. Quiet strength came into her heart from those great
gray stones. Century after century they had enclosed that lovely circle
of open sky and sunlit cloud and swallow-flights. Every other ancient
roof in Rome had gone down to heaps of rubbish, save only this,
steadfast, enduring, letting in the innocent clear light of every day
down to the heart of the old temple.
Daylight--that was what made the Pantheon a place apart for her--honest
daylight. How cheap beside it was the theatrical yellow of the windows
back of the altar in St. Peter's!
She looked about her for a place to sit, and, seeing no chair, took a
prie-dieu and sank to her knees on it as though she were praying. She
was praying in her way. She continued to look up at the heaped golden
clouds, at the infinite depth of the blue, blue sky, at the ineffable
clarity of the light, pouring in through the great round opening. It
seemed to smile at her, an honest, loving, reassuring smile that flooded
her vexed, somber heart as it flooded the somber, ancient building. What
strength, what strength in those gray stones, to hold together where
everything else had been broken and dispersed! How beautiful primitive
things were! How consoling and healing--the hardness and strength of
stones, the clarity of light, the transparency of the sky! If you could
only somehow make your life up of such things--strength, sunshine,
simplicity--and music!
She continued to gaze up, her hands clasped. Yes, she was praying, she
was praying for a little share of all that.
* * * * *
What was that absurd Mr. Livingstone saying? Marise glanced up sharply
from her book and listened. Why, he was talking about Crittenden's--old
Mr. Crittenden dead and had left that lovely old mountain home to some
indifferent nephew? To make sure, she put her book down and asked a
question or two. How strange that she should be talking about _Ashley_
to people here in a Roman _pension_! Ashley! Crittenden's! Cousin Hetty!
She seemed to have gone again back to her book, but she was not reading.
She was looking at a sunlit green valley, a white road winding through
it, a glass-clear little river chanting under willows, low, friendly
homes under tall elms, ugly old people with plain speech and honest,
quiet eyes, smiling down lovingly on a skipping, frisking little girl.
"... I see them shining plain,
The happy highways where I went
And may not go again."
After a time she closed her book and went up on the roof for a quiet
moment alone, to go back to Ashley, to look at those blue, remembered
hills.
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