"Yes, you've persuaded me. I've persuaded myself. I'm not going to sell
the Ashley property right away, not without going up to look at it at
least. I've been thinking a great deal about what you said that first
day. I've been thinking a great deal anyway--can't--can't we sit down
somewhere?" He flung away any pretense of having a special place to show
her. She too had apparently forgotten it. They sat down on the short
grass, their backs against a low heap of stones, part of the ruins of a
very ancient aqueduct. Far in the distance a flock of sheep roamed with
a solitary shepherd leaning on his staff.
"You know--you know what we've been talking about, trying to find one's
way, know what you were meant to do. Well, my guess about myself is that
I'm a maker by birth, not a buyer or seller. The more I think of it the
better it looks to me, like something I'd like to put my heart into
doing as well as I could--taking raw material, you know, that's of no
special value in itself and helping other men to make it worth more by
adding work and intelligence to it. You know what somebody said about
the ounce of iron that's of no use, and the hundred hair-springs the
watchmaker makes out of it. I don't see why I didn't think of it at once
when I knew Uncle Burton had left me the mill. But I'd never have
thought of it if you hadn't helped me. It takes me so _long_ to get
around to anything anyhow. And you are so quick! You see, I know a lot
about the lumber-business, and quite a bit about saw mills, and I can
get on fine with workmen. I _like_ them, and I _love_ working in the
woods. And--and--" he brought out the second of his carefully planned
points, "it would be a home too. You said it was a home. Everybody wants
a home, Marise."
He sat silent, listening to the word as it echoed over their two
homeless heads. And then he took his courage in his two hands and turned
towards Marise. What he saw in her face so shocked and startled him that
every carefully planned word dropped from his mind. He forgot everything
except that the dark, set look was on her face and all that tragic
sadness he could not forget.
"Marise, Marise--what is it?" he cried, frightened. What could he have
said?
With her shoulders and eyebrows she made an ugly, dry little gesture of
dismissing the subject, and said ironically, "What makes you so sure
everybody wants a home?"
He stared at her stupidly, not able to think of anything to say, till
she went on impatiently, irritably, "It's just sentimental to talk like
that. I never heard you say a sentimental word before. You know what
homes are like,--places where people either lie to each other or
quarrel."
Neale was startled by the quivering, low-toned violence of her accent.
Why should she wince and shrink back as if he had struck on an
intolerably sensitive bruise--at the word, _home_?
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