Courts and courtiers -- Fiction; German fiction -- Translations into English; Germany -- Fiction
"Halt, Imma, I beg you, don't gallop.... One can't get a word out....
Love, you say. But what sort of love is it? A meadow-love, a casual,
superficial love, a love at a distance, which means nothing--a love in
full dress with no familiarity about it. No, you've absolutely no reason
to be angry because I express myself pleased with it, for I get no good
from it; only the people do, who are elevated by it, and that's their
desire. But I too have my desire, Imma, and it's to you that I turn."
"How can I help you, Prince?"
"Oh, you know well! It's confidence, Imma; couldn't you have a little
confidence in me?"
She looked at him, and the scrutiny of her big eyes had never before
been so dark and piercing. But for all the urgency of his dumb pleading,
she turned away, and said with a look which betrayed no secrets: "No,
Prince Klaus Heinrich, I cannot."
He uttered a cry of grief, and his voice shook, as he asked: "And why
can't you?"
She replied: "Because you prevent me."
"How do I prevent you? Please tell me, I beg."
And, with the reserved expression still on her face, her eyes dropped on
her white reins, and rocking lightly to her horse's walk, she replied:
"Through everything, through your conduct, through the way and manner of
your being, through your highly distinguished personality. You know well
enough how you prevented the poor Countess from letting herself go, and
forced her to be clear-brained and reasonable, although it is expressly
on the ground of her excessive experiences that the blessing of
craziness and oddness has been vouchsafed to her, and that I told you
that I was well aware how you had set out to sober her. Yes, I know it
well, for you prevent me too from letting myself go, you sober me too,
continually, in every way, through your words, through your look,
through your way of sitting and standing, and it is quite impossible to
have confidence in you. I've had the opportunity of watching you in your
intercourse with other people; but whether it was Doctor Sammet in the
Dorothea Hospital or Herr Stavenüter in the 'Pheasantry' Tea-garden, it
was always the same, and it always made me shiver. You hold yourself
erect, and ask questions, but you don't do so out of sympathy, you don't
care what the questions are about--no, you don't care about anything,
and you lay nothing to heart. I've often seen it--you speak, you express
an opinion, but you might just as well express a quite different one,
for in reality you have no opinion and no belief, and the only thing you
care about is your princely self-possession. You say sometimes that your
calling is not an easy one, but as you have challenged me, I'll ask you
to notice that it would be easier to you if you had an opinion and a
belief, Prince, that's my opinion and belief. How could anyone have
confidence in you! No, it's not confidence that you inspire, but
coldness and embarrassment; and if I put myself out to get closer to
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