Domestic fiction; England -- Fiction; Mothers and sons -- Fiction; Religious fiction; Unmarried mothers -- Fiction
As in truth he was; and the proof of this was daily shown in many
kind inquiries, and many thoughtful little offerings, besides Mr
Farquhar's. The poor (warm and kind of heart to all sorrow common
to humanity) were touched with pity for the young widow, whose only
child lay ill, and nigh unto death. They brought what they could--a
fresh egg, when eggs were scarce--a few ripe pears that grew on the
sunniest side of the humblest cottage, where the fruit was regarded
as a source of income--a call of inquiry, and a prayer that God would
spare the child, from an old crippled woman, who could scarcely drag
herself so far as the Chapel-house, yet felt her worn and weary heart
stirred with a sharp pang of sympathy, and a very present remembrance
of the time when she too was young, and saw the life-breath quiver
out of her child, now an angel in that heaven which felt more like
home to the desolate old creature than this empty earth. To all such,
when Leonard was better, Ruth went, and thanked them from her heart.
She and the old cripple sat hand in hand over the scanty fire on the
hearth of the latter, while she told in solemn, broken, homely words,
how her child sickened and died. Tears fell like rain down Ruth's
cheeks; but those of the old woman were dry. All tears had been wept
out of her long ago, and now she sat patient and quiet, waiting
for death. But after this, Ruth "clave unto her," and the two were
henceforward a pair of friends. Mr Farquhar was only included in the
general gratitude which she felt towards all who had been kind to her
boy.
The winter passed away in deep peace after the storms of the autumn,
yet every now and then a feeling of insecurity made Ruth shake for an
instant. Those wild autumnal storms had torn aside the quiet flowers
and herbage that had gathered over the wreck of her early life, and
shown her that all deeds, however hidden and long passed by, have
their eternal consequences. She turned sick and faint whenever Mr
Donne's name was casually mentioned. No one saw it; but she felt the
miserable stop in her heart's beating, and wished that she could
prevent it by any exercise of self-command. She had never named his
identity with Mr Bellingham, nor had she spoken about the seaside
interview. Deep shame made her silent and reserved on all her
life before Leonard's birth; from that time she rose again in her
self-respect, and spoke as openly as a child (when need was) of all
occurrences which had taken place since then; except that she could
not, and would not, tell of this mocking echo, this haunting phantom,
this past, that would not rest in its grave. The very circumstance
that it was stalking abroad in the world, and might reappear at any
moment, made her a coward: she trembled away from contemplating what
the reality had been; only she clung more faithfully than before
to the thought of the great God, who was a rock in the dreary land,
where no shadow was.
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