“You can’t be thinking of so small and silly a thing for me!” the
girl of the picture seemed to say. “When you and I may save perhaps
a thousand, ten thousand, a million men! I left home to serve; you
know my dreams, for you have dreamed them too; and, more than you, I
had opportunity offered to do. And instead, almost before I had
started, I was killed stupidly and, it seemed for nothing. It almost
happened that--instead of serving--I was about to become the means
of betrayal of our armies. But you came to save me from that; you
came to do for me, and for yourself, more than either of us dreamed
to do. Be sure of me, as I would be sure of you in my place! Save
me, with you, for our great moment! Carry me on!”
Ruth put the picture down. “We’ll go on together!” she made her
compact with the soul of Cynthia Gail.
She was glad that, before acting upon her decision, she had no time
to dwell upon the consequences. She must accept her rôle at once or
forever forsake it. Indeed, she might already be too late. She went
to her washbowl and bathed; she redid her hair, more like the girl
in the picture. The dress which she had been wearing was her best
for the street so she put it on again. She put on her hat and coat;
she separated two hundred dollars from the rest of the money and put
it in her purse; the balance, together with the passport and the
page of Cynthia Gail’s letter, she secured in her knitting bag. The
sheet of orders with the information about Cynthia Gail gave her
hesitation. She reread it again carefully; and she was almost
certain that she could remember everything; but, being informed of
so little, she must be certain to have that exact. So she reached
for her leaflet of instructions for knitting helmets, socks, and
sweaters, and she wrote upon the margin, in almost imperceptible
strokes, shorthand curls and dashes, condensing the related facts
about Cynthia Gail. She put this in her bag, destroyed the original
and, taking up her bag, she went out.
Every few moments as she proceeded down the dun and drab street, in
nowise changed from the half hour before, she pressed the bag
against her side to feel the hardness of the packets pinned in the
bottom; she needed this feelable proof to assure her that this last
half hour had not been all her fantasy but that truly the wand of
war, which she had seen to lift so many out of the drudge of mean,
mercenary tasks, had touched her too.
She hailed a taxicab as soon as she was out of sight of the boarding
house and directed it to the best downtown store where she bought,
with part of the two hundred dollars, such a fur toque and such a
blue coat with a fur collar as she supposed Cynthia Gail might have
possessed. She had qualms while she was paying for them; she seemed
to be spending a beggar’s money, given her by mistake. She wore the
new toque and the coat, instructing that her old garments be sent,
without name, to the war-relief shop.
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