Gothic fiction; Guardian and ward -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Orphans -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
At last, dull stupor overpowers it; and long, long, after that, comes a
woman's kind face and gentle touch; then a hand and voice that are
unfamiliar and unwelcome; cat-like and soft, from which I shrink in
aversion. Then, they too vanish, and when next the uncertain mist of
oblivion rolls up, I am lying in a long low room, strange and new to
me, but not unpleasing, even by the dim light that burns upon the table,
shaded from me by a painted screen. My eyes wander around inquiringly
upon the simple furniture of the room, the dark, low walls, the piles of
books and pamphlets that heap the shelves irregularly, till they rest
upon the two figures at the other end of the room. A fire burns low on
the hearth, and beside it sits a man, stooping his head upon his hand.
Another in an attitude that is familiar to me, stands with his arm upon
the mantelpiece shading his eyes from the light. They talk low and
earnestly; sometimes the one standing by the mantelpiece strides
impatiently backward and forward, across the room, and resumes his
former attitude. He by the fire never moves. I try to listen, but the
effort confuses me; and it is a long while before any of their words
reach me, and then only in a broken, uncertain way. The first I catch
are those of the voice that is familiar to me:
"It is the first time I ever rejected your counsel; the first time I
ever put aside your warning. Do you believe me when I say it pains me to
the heart, after so many years of steadfast and close friendship, to
rebel against the sacrifice it requires of me? But you do not know what
you ask, indeed you do not!"
"Perhaps not, Arthur, perhaps not," answered his companion, in a low
voice. "Do not think again of what I said; it was an over-anxiety for
your happiness that prompted me to speak; and now forget the words, and
remember only the love that moved them."
"No, Shenstone, I will not forget them," the other says, warmly; "I know
too well the value of your counsels. I will remember what you have said,
and keep the caution by me, when there is need for caution. But you must
not blame me, if I cannot put aside at once a hope that has got so
strong a hold upon me. I promise you to do nothing rashly, to let
nothing blind my judgment, to put the test of absence, change of scene,
change of interest, upon us both; years, if you will, shall pass before
I dare attempt to realize my hope; years that shall prove its
possibility, or show its folly; but do not ask me to give it up at
once."
Mr. Shenstone shook his head. "Will it be easier to tear up the
cherished hope of years, than to put down the fond fancy of a day, my
friend, do you think?"
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