A big grey moth was fluttering against the lamp. Pierson got up and
caught it in the curve of his palm. “Poor thing! You're like my
Nollie; so soft, and dreamy, so feckless, so reckless.” And going to
the curtains, he thrust his hand through, and released the moth.
“Dad!” said Gratian suddenly, “we can only find out for ourselves,
even if we do singe our wings in doing it. We've been reading
James's 'Pragmatism.' George says the only chapter that's
important is missing—the one on ethics, to show that what we do is not
wrong till it's proved wrong by the result. I suppose he was afraid to
deliver that lecture.”
Pierson's face wore the smile which always came on it when he had to
deal with George, the smile which said: “Ah, George, that's very
clever; but I know.”
“My dear,” he said, “that doctrine is the most dangerous in the
world. I am surprised at George.”
“I don't think George is in danger, Dad.”
“George is a man of wide experience and strong judgment and character;
but think how fatal it would be for Nollie, my poor Nollie, whom a
little gust can blow into the candle.”
“All the same,” said Gratian stubbornly, “I don't think anyone
can be good or worth anything unless they judge for themselves and take
risks.”
Pierson went close to her; his face was quivering.
“Don't let us differ on this last night; I must go up to Nollie for
a minute, and then to bed. I shan't see you to-morrow; you mustn't
get up; I can bear parting better like this. And my train goes at eight.
God bless you, Gracie; give George my love. I know, I have always known
that he's a good man, though we do fight so. Good-bye, my darling.”
He went out with his cheeks wet from Gratian's tears, and stood in
the porch a minute to recover his composure. The shadow of the house
stretched velvet and blunt over the rock-garden. A night-jar was
spinning; the churring sound affected him oddly. The last English
night-bird he would hear. England! What a night-to say good-bye! 'My
country!' he thought; 'my beautiful country!' The dew was lying
thick and silvery already on the little patch of grass-the last dew,
the last scent of an English night. The call of a bugle floated out.
“England!” he prayed; “God be about you!” A little sound
answered from across the grass, like an old man's cough, and the
scrape and rattle of a chain. A face emerged at the edge of the
house's shadow; bearded and horned like that of Pan, it seemed to
stare at him. And he saw the dim grey form of the garden goat, heard it
scuttle round the stake to which it was tethered, as though alarmed at
this visitor to its' domain.
He went up the half-flight of stairs to Noel's narrow little room,
next the nursery. No voice answered his tap. It was dark, but he could
see her at the window, leaning far out, with her chin on her hands.
“Nollie!”
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