Discovery that there was still a barrier between him and them came but
slowly in the next two days. He would not acknowledge it, yet it was
there, in their voices, in their movements—rather an absence of
something old than the presence of something new. It was as if each had
said to him: “We love you, but you are not in our secrets—and you
must not be, for you would try to destroy them.” They showed no fear
of him, but seemed to be pushing him unconsciously away, lest he should
restrain or alter what was very dear to them. They were both fond of
him, but their natures had set foot on definitely diverging paths. The
closer the affection, the more watchful they were against interference
by that affection. Noel had a look on her face, half dazed, half
proud, which touched, yet vexed him. What had he done to forfeit her
confidence—surely she must see how natural and right his opposition
had been! He made one great effort to show the real sympathy he felt
for her. But she only said: “I can't talk of Cyril, Daddy; I simply
can't!” And he, who easily shrank into his shell, could not but
acquiesce in her reserve.
With Gratian it was different. He knew that an encounter was before him;
a struggle between him and her husband—for characteristically he set
the change in her, the defection of her faith, down to George, not to
spontaneous thought and feeling in herself. He dreaded and yet looked
forward to this encounter. It came on the third day, when Laird was up,
lying on that very sofa where Pierson had sat listening to Gratian's
confession of disbelief. Except for putting in his head to say good
morning, he had not yet seen his son-in-law: The young doctor could
not look fragile, the build of his face, with that law and those heavy
cheekbones was too much against it, but there was about him enough of
the look of having come through a hard fight to give Pierson's heart a
squeeze.
“Well, George,” he said, “you gave us a dreadful fright! I thank
God's mercy.” With that half-mechanical phrase he had flung an
unconscious challenge. Laird looked up whimsically.
“So you really think God merciful, sir?”
“Don't let us argue, George; you're not strong enough.”
“Oh! I'm pining for something to bite on.”
Pierson looked at Gratian, and said softly:
“God's mercy is infinite, and you know it is.”
Laird also looked at Gratian, before he answered:
“God's mercy is surely the amount of mercy man has succeeded in
arriving at. How much that is, this war tells you, sir.”
Pierson flushed. “I don't follow you,” he said painfully. “How
can you say such things, when you yourself are only just—No; I refuse
to argue, George; I refuse.”
Laird stretched out his hand to his wife, who came to him, and stood
clasping it with her own. “Well, I'm going to argue,” he said;
“I'm simply bursting with it. I challenge you, sir, to show me
where there's any sign of altruistic pity, except in man. Mother love
doesn't count—mother and child are too much one.”
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