Of this change the poor girl was at once aware, but she attributed it
to a temporary absorption in his studies. Soon, however, she could not
doubt that not merely was his voice or his countenance changed toward
her, but that his heart had grown cold, and that he was no longer
“friends with her.” For there was another and viler element than mere
jealousy concerned in his alteration: he had become aware of a more
real danger into which he was rapidly drifting—that of irrecoverably
blasting the very dawn of his prospects by an imprudent marriage. “To
saddle himself with a wife,” as he vulgarly expressed it, before he had
gained his license—before even he had had the poorest opportunity of
distinguishing himself in that wherein lay his every hope and
ambition of proving his excellence, was a thing not for a moment to
be contemplated! And now, when Isobel asked him in sorrowful mood some
indifferent question, the uneasy knowledge that he was about to increase
her sadness made him answer her roughly—a form not unnatural to
incipient compunction: white as a ghost she stood a moment silently
staring at him, then sank on the floor senseless.
Seized with an overmastering repentance that brought back with a rush
all his tenderness, James sprang to her, lifted her in his arms, laid
her on the sofa, and lavished caresses upon her, until at length she
recovered sufficiently to know where she lay—in the false paradise of
his arms, with him kneeling over her in a passion of regret, the first
passion he had ever felt or manifested toward her, pouring into her ear
words of incoherent dismay—which, taking shape as she revived, soon
became promises and vows. Thereupon the knowledge that he had committed
himself, and the conviction that he was henceforth bound to one course
in regard to her, wherein he seemed to himself incapable of falsehood,
unhappily freed him from the self-restraint then most imperative upon
him, and his trust in his own honour became the last loop of the snare
about to entangle his and her very life. At the moment when a genuine
love would have hastened to surround the woman with bulwarks of safety,
he ceased to regard himself as his sister’s keeper. Even thus did Cain
cease to be his brother’s keeper, and so slew him.
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