But the minister went away intent on classifying the soutar by finding
out with what sect of the middle-age mystics to place him. At the same
time something strange seemed to hover about the man, refusing to be
handled in that way. Something which he called his own religious sense
appeared to know something of what the soutar must mean, though he could
neither isolate nor define it.
Faithlessly as he had behaved to Isy, Blatherwick was not consciously,
that is with purpose or intent, a deceitful man. He had, on the
contrary, always cherished a strong faith in his own honour. But faith
in a thing, in an idea, in a notion, is no proof, or even sign that the
thing actually exists: in the present case it had no root except in
the man’s thought of himself, in his presentation to himself of his own
reflected self. The man who thought so much of his honour was in truth a
moral unreality, a cowardly fellow, a sneak who, in the hope of escaping
consequences, carried himself as beyond reproof. How should such a one
ever have the power of spiritual vision developed in him? How should
such a one ever see God—ever exist in the same region in which the
soutar had long taken up his abode? Still there was this much reality
in him, and he had made this much progress that, holding fast by his
resolve henceforward no more to slide, he was aware also of a dim
suspicion of something he had not seen, but which he might become able
to see; and was half resolved to think and read, for the future, with
the intent to find out what this strange man seemed to know, or thought
he knew.
Soon finding himself unable, however, try as hard as he might, to be
sure of anything, he became weary of the effort, and sank back into the
old, self-satisfied, blind sleep.
CHAPTER IX
Out of this quiescence, however, a pang from the past one morning
suddenly waked him, and almost without consciousness of a volition, he
found himself at the soutar’s door. Maggie opened it with the baby in
her arms, with whom she had just been having a game. Her face was in a
glow, her hair tossed about, and her dark eyes flashing with excitement.
To Blatherwick, without any great natural interest in life, and in the
net of a haunting trouble which caused him no immediate apprehension,
the young girl, of so little account in the world, and so far below him
as he thought, affected him as beautiful; and, indeed, she was far more
beautiful than he was able to appreciate. It must be remembered too,
that it was not long since he had been refused by another; and at such
a time a man is readier to fall in love afresh. Trouble then, lack of
interest, and late repulse, had laid James’s heart, such as it was, open
to assault from a new quarter whence he foresaw no danger.
“That’s a very fine baby you have!” he said. “Whose is he?”
“Mine, sir,” answered Maggie, with some triumph, for she thought every
one must know the story of her treasure.
“Oh, indeed; I did not know!” answered the parson, bewildered.
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