Now, as in some other mystical natures, a certain something had been
developed in the soutar not unlike a spirit of prophecy—an insight
which, seemingly without exercise of the will, sometimes laid bare to
him in a measure the thoughts and intents of hearts in which he was more
than usually interested; or perhaps it was rather a faculty, working
unconsciously, of putting signs together, and drawing from them
instantaneous conclusion of the fact at which they pointed. After their
greeting, he suddenly looked up at his visitor with a certain fixed
attention: the mere glance had shown him that he looked ill, and he now
saw that something in the man’s heart was eating at it like a canker.
Therewith at once arose in his brain the question: could he be the
father of the little one crowing in the next room? But he shut it into
the darkest closet of his mind, shrinking from the secret of another
soul, as from the veil of the Holy of Holies! The next moment, however,
came the thought: what if the man stood in need of the offices of a
friend? It was one thing to pry into a man’s secret; another, to help
him escape from it! As out of this thought the soutar sat looking at him
for a moment, the minister felt the hot blood rush to his cheeks.
“Ye dinna luik that weel, minister,” said the soutar: “is there onything
the maitter wi’ ye, sir?”
“Nothing worth mentioning,” answered the parson. “I have sometimes a
touch of headache in the early morning, especially when I have sat later
than usual over my books the night before; but it always goes off during
the day.”
“Ow weel, sir, that’s no, as ye say, a vera sairious thing! I couldna
help fancyin ye had something on yer min’ by ord’nar!”
“Naething, naething,” answered James with a feeble laugh. “—But,” he
went on—and something seemed to send the words to his lips without
giving him time to think—“it is curious you should say that, for I was
just thinking what was the real intent of the apostle in his injunction
to confess our faults one to another.”
The moment he uttered the words he felt as if he had proclaimed his
secret on the housetop; and he would have begun the sentence afresh,
with some notion of correcting it; but again he knew the hot blood shoot
to his face.—“I _must_ go on with something!” he felt rather than said
to himself, “or those sharp eyes will see through and through me!”
“It came into my mind,” he went on, “that I should like to know what
_you_ thought about the passage: it cannot surely give the least ground
for auricular confession! I understand perfectly how a man may want
to consult a friend in any difficulty—and that friend naturally the
minister; but—”
This was by no means a thing he had meant to say, but he seemed carried
on to say he knew not what. It was as if, without his will, the will
of God was driving the man to the brink of a pure confession—to the
cleansing of his stuffed bosom “of that perilous stuff which weighs upon
the heart.”
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