Mrs. Blatherwick understood, and said no more. She showed her what
she might set about; and Isy, happy as a child, came and went at
her commands, rejoicing. Probably, had she started in life with less
devotion, she might have fared better; but the end was not yet, and the
end must be known before we dare judge: result explains history. It is
enough for the present to say that, with the comparative repose of mind
she now enjoyed, with the good food she had, and the wholesome exercise,
for Mrs. Blatherwick took care she should not work too hard, with the
steady kindness shown her, and the consequent growth of her faith and
hope, Isy’s light-heartedness first, and then her good looks began to
return; so that soon the dainty little creature was both prettier and
lovelier than before. At the same time her face and figure, her ways
and motions, went on mingling themselves so inextricably with Marion’s
impressions of her vanished Isy, that at length she felt as if she
never could be able to part with her. Nor was it long before she assured
herself that she was equal to anything that had to be done in the house;
and that the experience of a day or two would make her capable of
the work of the dairy as well. Thus Isy and her mistress, for so Isy
insisted on regarding and calling her, speedily settled into their new
relation.
It did sometimes cross the girl’s mind, and that with a sting of doubt,
whether it was fair to hide from her new friends the full facts of her
sorrowful history; but to quiet her conscience she had only to reflect
that for the sake of the son they loved, she must keep jealous guard
over her silence. Further than James’s protection, she had no design,
cherished no scheme. The idea of compelling, or even influencing him to
do her justice, never once crossed her horizon. On the contrary, she was
possessed by the notion that she had done him a great wrong, and shrank
in horror from the danger of rendering it irretrievable. She had never
thought the thing out as between her and him, never even said to herself
that he too had been to blame. Her exaggerated notion of the share she
had in the fault, had lodged and got fixed in her mind, partly from
her acquaintance with the popular judgment concerning such as she, and
partly from her humble readiness to take any blame to herself. Even had
she been capable of comparing the relative consequences, the injury she
had done his prospects as a minister, would have seemed to her revering
soul a far greater wrong than any suffering or loss he had brought upon
her. For what was she beside him? What was the ruin of her life to the
frustration of such prospects as his? The sole alleviation of her
misery was that she seemed hitherto to have escaped involving him in the
results of her lack of self-restraint, which results, she was certain,
remained concealed from him, as from every one in any way concerned
with him in them. In truth, never was man less worthy of it, or more
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