The night had fallen when he reached the farm. The place was silent; its
doors were all shut; and when he opened the nearest, seldom used but for
the reception of strangers, not a soul was to be seen; no one came to
meet him, for no one had even thought of him, and certainly no one,
except it were the dead, desired his coming. He went into the parlour,
and there, from the dim chamber beyond, whose door stood open, appeared
his mother. Her heart big with grief, she clasped him in her arms, and
laid her cheek against his bosom: higher she could not reach, and
nearer than his breast-bone she could not get to him. No endearment
was customary between them: James had never encouraged or missed any;
neither did he know how to receive such when offered.
“I am distressed, mother,” he began, “to see you so upset; and I cannot
help thinking such a display of feeling unnecessary. If I may say so, it
seems to me unreasonable. You cannot, in such a brief period as this new
maid of yours has spent with you, have developed such an affection for
her, as this—” he hesitated for a word, “—as this _bouleversement_
would seem to indicate! The young woman can hardly be a relative, or
I should surely have heard of her existence! The suddenness of the
occurrence, of which I heard only from my shoemaker, MacLear, must have
wrought disastrously upon your nerves! Come, come, dear mother! you must
indeed compose yourself! It is quite unworthy of you, to yield to such a
paroxysm of unnatural and uncalled-for grief! Surely it is the part of a
Christian like you, to meet with calmness, especially in the case of one
you have known so little, that inevitable change which neither man
nor woman can avoid longer than a few years at most! Of course, the
appalling instantaneousness of it in the present case, goes far to
explain and excuse your emotion, but now at least, after so many hours
have elapsed, it is surely time for reason to resume her sway! Was
it not Schiller who said, ‘Death cannot be an evil, for it is
universal’?—At all events, it is not an unmitigated evil!” he
added—with a sigh, as if for his part he was prepared to welcome it.
During this prolonged and foolish speech, the gentle woman, whose
mother-heart had loved the poor girl that bore her daughter’s name, had
been restraining her sobs behind her handkerchief; but now, as she heard
her son’s cold commonplaces, it was, perhaps, a little wholesome anger
that roused her, and made her able to speak.
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