such an old man! I was nearly dead with my mother's voice. By-and-by we
were all silent, for there was nothing to eat. So I said to my mother,
"I will earn money." My mother cried. I proposed to take a lodging for
myself, all by myself; go there in the morning and return at night, and
give lessons, and get money for them. My landlady's good son gave me the
brass-plate again. Emilia Alessandra Belloni! I was glad to see my
name. I got two pupils very quickly one, an old lady, and one, a young
one. The old lady--I mean, she was not grey--wanted a gentleman to marry
her, and the landlady told me--I mean my pupil--it makes me laugh--asked
him what he thought of her voice: for I had been singing. I earned a
great deal of money: two pounds ten shillings a week. I could afford to
pay for lessons myself, I thought. What an expense! I had to pay ten
shillings for one lesson! Some have to pay twenty; but I would pay it to
learn from the best masters;--and I had to make my father and mother live
on potatoes, and myself too, of course. If you buy potatoes carefully,
they are extremely cheap things to live upon, and make you forget your
hunger more than anything else.
"I suppose," added Emilia, "you have never lived upon potatoes entirely?
Oh, no!"
Wilfrid gave a quiet negative.
"But I was pining to learn, and was obliged to keep them low. I could
pitch any notes, and I was clear but I was always ornamenting, and what I
want is to be an accurate singer. My music-master was a German--not an
Austrian--oh, no!--I'm sure he was not. At least, I don't think so, for
I liked him. He was harsh with me, but sometimes he did stretch his
fingers on my head, and turn it round, and say words that I pretended not
to think of, though they sent me home burning. I began to compose, and
this gentleman tore up the whole sheet in a rage, when I showed it him;
but he gave me a dinner, and left off charging me ten shillings--only
seven, and then five--and he gave me more time than he gave others. He
also did something which I don't know yet whether I can thank him for.
He made me know the music of the great German. I used to listen: I could
not believe such music could come from a German. He followed me about,
telling me I was his slave. For some time I could not sleep. I laughed
at myself for composing. He was not an Austrian: but when he was alive
he lived in Vienna, the capital of Austria. He ate Austrian bread, and
why God gave him such a soul of music I never can think!--Well, by-and-by
my father wanted to know what I did in the day, and why they never had
anything but potatoes for dinner. My mother came to me, and I told her
to say, I took walks. My father said I was an idle girl, and like my
mother--who was a slave to work. People are often unjust! So my father
said he would watch me. I had to cross the park to give a lesson to a
lady who had a husband, and she wanted to sing to him to keep him at home
in the evening.
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