SCANNERS LIVE IN VAIN
BY CORDWAINER SMITH
This story deals with science-fiction's oldest subject--space-travel.
Yet the author's treatment of the subject is so completely different
that it makes "SCANNERS" one of the most outstanding stories to appear
in any magazine!
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Martel was angry. He did not even adjust his blood away from anger.
He stamped across the room by judgment, not by sight. When he saw the
table hit the floor, and could tell by the expression on Luci's face
that the table must have made a loud crash, he looked down to see if
his leg were broken. It was not. Scanner to the core, he had to scan
himself. The action was reflex and automatic. The inventory included
his legs, abdomen, Chestbox of instruments, hands, arms, face and back
with the Mirror. Only then did Martel go back to being angry. He
talked with his voice, even though he knew that his wife hated its
blare and preferred to have him write.
"I tell you, I must cranch. I have to cranch. It's my worry, isn't
it?"
When Luci answered, he saw only a part of her words as he read her
lips: "Darling ... you're my husband ... right to love you ...
dangerous ... do it ... dangerous ... wait ...."
He faced her, but put sound in his voice, letting the blare hurt her
again: "I tell you, I'm going to cranch."
Catching her expression, he became rueful and a little tender: "Can't
you understand what it means to me? To get out of this horrible prison
in my own head? To be _feel_ again--to feel my feet on the ground, to
feel the air a man again--hearing your voice, smelling smoke? To move
against my face? Don't you know what it means?"
Her wide-eyed worrisome concern thrust him back into pure annoyance.
He read only a few words as her lips moved: "... love you ... your own
good ... don't you think I want you to be human? ... your own good ...
too much ... he said ... they said ...."
When he roared at her, he realized that his voice must be particularly
bad. He knew that the sound hurt her no less than did the words: "Do
you think I wanted you to marry a Scanner? Didn't I tell you we're
almost as low as the habermans? We're dead, I tell you. We've got to
be dead to do our work. How can anybody go to the Up-and-Out? Can you
dream what raw Space is? I warned you. But you married me. All
right, you married a man. Please, darling, let me be a man. Let me
hear your voice, let me feel the warmth of being alive, of being human.
Let me!"
He saw by her look of stricken assent that he had won the argument. He
did not use his voice again. Instead, he pulled his tablet up from
where it hung against his chest. He wrote on it, using the pointed
fingernail of his right forefinger--the Talking Nail of a Scanner--in
quick cleancut script: "Pls, drlng, whrs Crnching Wire?"
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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