Sevastopol (Ukraine) -- History -- Siege, 1854-1855 -- Fiction
“On the fifth bastion, your excellency, in the first bombardment. I had
just sighted the cannon, and was going quietly to the other embrasure,
when suddenly something struck my foot. I thought I had fallen into a
hole. I looked--my leg was gone!”
“You didn’t have any pain at first, then?”
“None at all, only just as if I had scalded my leg; that’s all.”
“And afterwards?”
“None afterwards, only when they stretched the skin; that was a little
rough. First of all things, your excellency, we mustn’t think. When we
don’t think we don’t feel. When a man thinks, it is the worse for him.”
Meanwhile, a woman dressed in gray, with a black kerchief tied around
her head, approaches, joins in the conversation, and begins to give a
detailed account of the sailor: how he has suffered, how his life was
despaired of for four weeks, how, when wounded, he made them stop the
stretcher on which he was being carried to the rear in order to watch
the discharge of our battery, and how the grand-dukes had spoken with
him, had given him twenty-five rubles, and how he had replied that, not
being able to serve any more himself, he would like to come back to the
bastion to train the conscripts. The good woman, her eyes sparkling with
enthusiasm, relates this in one breath, looking at you and then at the
sailor, who turns away and pretends not to hear, busy with picking lint
from his pillow.
“It is my wife, your excellency,” says the sailor at last, with an
intonation of voice which seems to say, “You must excuse her; all that
is woman’s foolish prattle, you know.”
You then begin to understand what the defenders of Sebastopol are, and
you are ashamed of yourself in the presence of this man. You would have
liked to express all your admiration for him, all your sympathy, but the
words will not come, or those which do come are worthless, and you can
only bow in silence before this unconscious grandeur, before this
firmness of soul and this exquisite shame of his own merit.
“Ah, well, may God speedily cure you!” you say, and you stop before
another wounded man lying on the floor, who, suffering horrible pain,
seems to be awaiting his death. He is blond, and his pale face is much
swollen. Stretched on his back, his left hand thrown up, his position
indicates acute suffering. His hissing breath escapes with difficulty
from his dry, half-open mouth. The glassy blue pupils of his eyes are
rolled up under the eyelids, and a mutilated arm, wrapped in bandages,
sticks out from under the tumbled blanket. A nauseating, corpse-like
odor rises to your nostrils, and the fever which burns the sufferer’s
limbs seems to penetrate your own body.
“Is he unconscious?” you ask of the woman who kindly accompanies you,
and to whom you are no longer a stranger.
“No; he can still hear, but he is very bad;” and she adds, under her
breath, “I have just made him drink a little tea. He is nothing to me,
only I have pity on him; indeed, he has only been able to swallow a few
mouthfuls.”
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