Secret BreadJesse, F. Tennyson (Fryniwyd Tennyson)
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Secret Bread
Jesse, F. Tennyson (Fryniwyd Tennyson)
Cornwall (England : County) -- Fiction
Afterwards he realised the chief debt he owed to Vassie was that she
first opened his eyes to the delightfulness of his child. One evening of
winter he happened to come in earlier than usual, at the sacred hour of
the bath, and Vassie promptly pounced on him and made him come up to the
room she had arranged according to her modern ideas--the modernity of
'69--as a nursery. A fire leapt in the grate from behind a thing like a
wire meat-safe that Ishmael had never seen before and that had never
been considered necessary to keep him or his brothers from a fiery
death. Before it was spread a creamy-hued blanket, on which stood an
oval bath from whose lip a cloud of steam wavered up, the incense of
this ritual. Vassie sat beside it, a towel over her knees, and sprawling
upon it, its bent legs kicking in the air, its tiny fists clutching at
everything and nothing with the instinctive grasp of life, lay the baby.
James Nicholas Ruan--so called after his uncle and the Parson--was a
little over three months old, just the age when a baby begins to be
attractive even to a male observer.
Ishmael watched him as Vassie skilfully dipped and dried him, turning
him about on her lap to dust the powder into the interstices of his tiny
person, and, far from resenting this as an indignity, he seemed to think
it all a huge joke. Yet the jollity of him, his sudden smiles and his
clutchings and wavings, all seemed addressed to himself alone--part of
some life he alone knew, some vision he alone could see. As he was
soaped and patted, and powdered and turned, there was always the air
about him of a being really supremely independent of everyone; although
his body seemed so helpless one got the impression that his soul was
thoroughly aloof, untouched. When he laughed at the efforts of the
grown-ups to please him it was a sublime condescension, that was all.
When something failed to please him he was recalled to the things of
this world and set up a loud wail, which filled Ishmael with anxiety,
though Vassie and the nurse remained unaccountably calm. The baby
evidently was of their opinion, because he left off wailing with the
suddenness with which he had begun, and finally was tucked into his
cradle and fell soundly asleep, one tiny hand flung palm upwards upon
the pillow by his head after the manner of babies from time immemorial.
Ishmael, though he had first held aloof and then been terrified when
Vassie insisted on his taking the fragile little body in his arms, had
yet felt a thrill go through him when he did so. It was not possible for
a man to have the feeling for the land that he had and not both crave
for a child and feel a deep-rooted emotion at its possession. Yet it was
more than that, he told himself, when he felt the warm little body
utterly dependent on him. He had taken him up before often enough, but
never in the intimacy of this evening, which held the quality of a
shrine.
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