Secret BreadJesse, F. Tennyson (Fryniwyd Tennyson)
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Secret Bread
Jesse, F. Tennyson (Fryniwyd Tennyson)
Cornwall (England : County) -- Fiction
He showed nothing of what he felt, but that evening, after Vassie and
her ever-talking husband had settled themselves in the parlour, he went
up again to the nursery and told the nurse she could go downstairs for a
little while. Then he crossed over to the cot and, drawing back the
curtain, looked down at the little morsel lying asleep in it. This was
his son, this small rosy thing, his son that would one day walk his land
beside him and would eventually take it over as his own. This was flesh
of his flesh as no wife could ever be, and soul of his soul as well.
As he looked the baby began to whimper and opened its eyes, of the milky
blue of a kitten's. Ishmael went on his knees beside the cot, and eager,
absurdly eager, to be able to cope with the situation successfully
himself, spoke as soothingly as he knew how. The baby's whimper became a
cry. His little hand beat the air. Ishmael struck his forefinger into
the tiny palm, and the little fingers curled round it with that amazing
tenacity of babies, who can clutch and suck before they can do anything
else--getting, always getting, from life, like all young things. The
baby hung firmly on to the finger and his cries died down; his mouth
twitched and puckered to an absurd smile. Ishmael felt an exquisite glow
suffuse his tired heart that had been so dry for months. He dared not
make a sound for fear he broke the spell of contentment that held the
baby and himself; he stayed with his finger enwrapped by those tiny
clinging fingers till long after the baby had fallen asleep again. Then
he crept from the room, and meeting the nurse his face assumed a blank
and casual expression. But his heart guarded the glow that had been lit,
which grew within him.
He began to work at Cloom as never before, because this time he was not
working for himself. As the baby grew and became more and more of a
delight and a companion--and a baby can be an excellent companion--he
felt within him a steady gleam that did not flicker with the mood of the
hour as so many gleams will. He told himself, as he settled into a
manner of life and thought of which the child was the inalienable
centre, that this was indeed the greatest thing in life. Before this,
desire paled and self died down; in the white light of this love all
others faded in smoke, except the love of heaven, of which it was a
part. By heaven he meant not only the future state of the soul, but the
earth on which he trod, and the only thing likely to become pernicious
during the years that followed was his obsession with the one idea and
his certainty that he had found the great secret.
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