Some reflections on queens of old who punished recreant lovers--Henry was in debt and I gave him money--Indignities by which some of that money was earned--Husband accompanies me to Loschwitz--Reflections on Frederick Augustus's character 239 CHAPTER XLVII LOVE'S INTERMEZZO Bernhardt takes advantage of my day-dreams--My husband's indolent _gaucherie_--Violent love-making--Ninon who loved families, not men--Does Bernhardt really love me? 245 CHAPTER XLVIII GRAND MISTRESS TELLS HUSBAND I KEEP A DIARY He wants to see it, but seems unsuspecting--Grand Mistress denies that she meant mischief, but I upbraid her unmercifully--Threaten to dismiss her like a thieving lackey 251 CHAPTER XLIX ARISTOCRATIC VISITORS I hear disquieting news about my lover's character--The aristocracy a dirty lot--Love-making made easy by titled friends--Anecdotes of Richelieu and the Duke of Orleans--The German nobleman who married Miss Wheeler and had to resign his birthright--The disreputable business the Pappenheims and other nobles used to be in--I am afraid to question my lover as to charges 255 CHAPTER L TO LIVE UNDER KING'S AND PRINCE GEORGE'S EYE Abruptly ordered to the royal summer residence--The Vitzthums and Henry take flight--Enmeshed by Prince George's intrigues--Those waiting for a crown have no friends--What I will do when Queen--No wonder Kings of old married only relatives--Interesting facts about relative marriages furnished by scientist 261 CHAPTER LI COLD RECEPTION--ENEMIES ALL AROUND Frederick Augustus gives his views on adultery--Doesn't care personally, but "the King knows"--"Thank God, the King is ill"--I am deprived of my children--Have I got the moral strength to defy my enemies? 265 CHAPTER LII PRINCE GEORGE REVEALS TO ME THE DEPTH OF HIS HATRED A terrible interview--"The devil will come to claim you"--Uncertain how much the King and Prince George know--I break into the nursery and stay with my children all day--Prince George insults me in my own rooms and threatens prison if I disobey him 269 CHAPTER LIII REVOLVER IN HAND, I DEMAND AN EXPLANATION An insolent Grand Mistress, but of wonderful courage--Imprisonment, threats to kill have no effect on her--Disregards my titles--My lover's souvenir and endearing words--How she caused Henry to leave me--My paroxysms of rage--Henry's complete betrayal of me 273 CHAPTER LIV FORCED TO DO PENANCE LIKE A TRAPPIST-MONK