Senescence, the Last Half of LifeHall, G. Stanley (Granville Stanley)
Science
Senescence, the Last Half of Life
Hall, G. Stanley (Granville Stanley)
Geriatrics
And now I have resigned, and after months of delay and with gratifying
expressions of regret, another younger captain, whom, happily, I can
fully trust, is in my place. I had always planned that my retirement,
when it came, should be complete. I would do my full duty up to the
last moment and then sever every tie and entirely efface myself, so far
as the institution I had served was concerned, and would distinctly
avoid every worry, even as to the fate of my most cherished policies.
This was only fair to my successor and all my interests must henceforth
be vested elsewhere. But what a break after all these decades! It
seemed almost like anticipatory death, and the press notices of my
withdrawal read to me not unlike obituaries. The very kindness of all
these and of the many private letters and messages that came to me
suggested that their authors had been prompted by the old principle,
_De mortuis nil nisi bonum_.
For more than forty years I have lectured at eleven o’clock and the
cessation of this function leaves a curious void. My friends have
already fancied that I tend to grow loquacious at that hour. If I
speak or write now, it must be to a very different clientele. During
all these years, too, I have held a seminary nearly every Monday
night, and now when this evening comes around my faculties activate,
even if _bombinantes in vacuo_. On those evenings I have been greatly
stimulated by familiar contact with vigorous student minds, for on
these occasions they and I have inspired each other to some of our best
_aperçus_. But now this contact is gone forever. My _Journal_, which
for more than thirty years had taken so much of my care and, at first
in its nursling period, of my surplus funds and had become for me an
institution in itself, is also now transferred to better hands.
Thus, I am rather summarily divorced from my world, and it might seem
at first as if there was little more to be said of me save to record
the date of my death--and we all know that men who retire often die
soon afterwards. So my prayer perhaps should be _Nunc dimittis_.
Ex-presidents, like founders of institutions, have often lived to
become meddling nuisances, so that even those whom they have most
profited, secretly and perhaps unconsciously long to participate in an
impressive funeral for them. What can remain but a trivial postscript?
And would not some of the suggested forms of painless extinction be
worthy of consideration? Of course it is bitter to feign that I am
suddenly dead to these interests I have so long lived for, as all the
proprieties demand I should do and as I inexorably will to do for my
very heart and soul went into them. But I did not build a monument to
myself in any sense but strove only to fashion an instrument of service
and such I know it will remain--and, I hope, far more effectively than
under my hand.
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