German fiction -- Translations into English; Short stories, German -- Translations into English
“Franz, there is something I want to tell you, something that has long
troubled me, something that I do not want to carry with me to my
grave.”
“Well, fire away,” said the host, taking up the long pipe that stood
beside his chair.
“There was once--something--between your wife and me.”
The host let his pipe fall back again, and stared at his friend with
wide-opened eyes.
“No jokes please, doctor,” he said finally.
“It is bitter earnest, Franz,” replied the other. “I have carried it
about with me these forty years, but now it is high time to have it out
with you.”
“Do you mean to say that the dead woman was untrue to me?” cried the
husband angrily.
“For shame, Franz,” said his friend with a soft, sad smile.
The old soldier murmured something and lit his pipe.
“No, she was as pure as God’s angels,” continued the other. “It is you
and I who are the guilty ones. Listen to me. It is now forty-three
years ago; you had just been ordered here as captain to Berlin, and I
was teaching at the University. You were a gay bird then, as you know.”
“H’m,” remarked the host, raising his trembling old hand to his
mustache.
“There was a beautiful actress with great black eyes and little white
teeth--do you remember?”
“_Do_ I? Bianca was her name,” answered the other as a faded smile
flashed over his weather-beaten, self-indulgent face. “Those little
white teeth could bite, I can tell you.”
“You deceived your wife, and she suspected it. But she said nothing
and suffered in silence. She was the first woman who had come into my
life since my mother’s death. She came into it like a shining star,
and I gazed up to her in adoration as one might adore a star. I found
the courage to ask her about her trouble. She smiled and said that she
was not feeling quite strong yet--you remember it was shortly after
the birth of your Paul. Then came New-Year’s Eve--forty-three years
ago to-night. I came in at eight o’clock as usual. She sat over her
embroidery and I read aloud to her while we waited for you. One hour
after another passed and still you did not come. I saw that she grew
more and more uneasy, and began to tremble. I trembled with her. I knew
where you were, and I feared you might forget the hour of midnight in
the arms of that woman. She had dropped her work, I read no longer. A
terrible silence weighed upon us. Then I saw a tear gather under her
eyelid and drop slowly down upon the embroidery in her lap. I sprang up
to go out and look for you. I felt myself capable of tearing you away
from that woman by force. But at the same moment she sprang up also
from her seat--this very same place where I am sitting now.
“‘Where are you going?’ she cried, terror in every feature. ‘I am going
to fetch Franz,’ I said. And then she screamed aloud: ‘For God’s sake,
_you_ stay with me at least--don’t _you_ forsake me also.’
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