German fiction -- Translations into English; Short stories, German -- Translations into English
her now, she is so far away, she is nearing the bridge, there is no
danger. No one can know who she was, no one can possibly imagine who
the woman was who drove down through the country road with the dead
man. The driver does not know her; he would not recognize her if he
should ever see her again. They will not take the trouble to find out
who she is. Who cares? It was wise of her not to stay--and it was not
cowardly either. Franz himself would say it was wise. She must go home;
she has a husband, a child; she would be lost if any one should see
her there with her dead lover. There is the bridge; the street seems
lighter--she hears the water beneath her. She stands there, where they
stood together, arm in arm--when was it? How many hours ago? It can
not be long since then. And yet--perhaps she lay unconscious long, and
it is midnight now, or near morning, and they have missed her at home.
Oh, no--it is not possible. She knows that she was not unconscious, she
remembers everything clearly. She runs across the bridge, shivering at
the sound of her own steps. Now she sees a figure coming toward her;
she slows her pace. It is a man in uniform. She walks more slowly, she
does not want to attract attention. She feels the man’s eyes resting
on her--suppose he stops her! Now he is quite near; it is a policeman.
She walks calmly past him, and hears him stop behind her. With an
effort she continues in the same slow pace. She hears the jingle of
street-car bells--ah, it can not be midnight yet. She walks more
quickly--hurrying toward the city, the lights of which begin there by
the railroad viaduct--the growing noise tells her how near she is. One
lonely stretch of street, and then she is safe. Now she hears a shrill
whistle coming rapidly nearer--a wagon flies swiftly past her. She
stops and looks after it; it is the ambulance of the Rescue Society.
She knows where it is going. “How quickly they have come,” she thinks;
“it is like magic.” For a moment she feels that she must call to them,
must go back with them. Shame, terrible, overwhelming shame, such as
she has never known before, shakes her from head to foot--she knows
how vile, how cowardly she is. Then, as the whistle and the rumble of
wheels fade away in the distance, a mad joy takes hold of her. She is
saved--saved! She hurries on; she meets more people, but she does not
fear them--the worst is over. The noise of the city grows louder, the
street is lighter, the skyline of the Prater street rises before her,
and she knows that she can sink into a flood tide of humanity there and
lose herself in it. When she comes to a street lamp she is quite calm
enough now to take out her watch and look at it. It is ten minutes to
nine. She holds the watch to her ear--it is ticking merrily. And she
thinks: “Here I am, alive, unharmed--and he--he--dead. It is Fate.” She
feels as if all had been forgiven--as if she had never sinned. And what
if Fate had willed otherwise? If it were she lying there in the ditch,
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