Bildungsromans; England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Illegitimate children -- Fiction
Michael leaned forward eagerly at this proposal. Nothing was so
entertaining to his egoism just now as diagnosis. Moreover, Mr. Wilmot
seemed inclined to take him more seriously than Mr. Viner, or, indeed,
any of his spiritual directors so far. Mr. Wilmot prepared himself for
the lecture by lighting a very long cigarette wrapped in brittle
fawn-coloured paper, whose spirals of smoke Michael followed upward to
their ultimate evanescence, as if indeed they typified with their
tenuous plumes and convolutions the intricate discourse that begot
them.
“In a sense, my dear boy, your charm has waned—the faerie
charm, that is, which wraps in heedless silver armour the
perfect boyhood of man. You are at present a queer sort of
mythical animal whom we for want of a better term call
‘adolescent.’ Intercourse with anything but your own self
shocks both you and the world with a sense of extravagance, as
if a centaur pursued a nymph or fought with a hero. The soul—or
what we call the soul—is struggling in the bondage of your
unformed body. Lately you had no soul, you were ethereal and
cold, yet withal
in some remote way passionate, like your own boy’s voice. Now
the silly sun is melting the snow, and what was a little while
since crystalline clear virginity is beginning to trickle down
towards a headlong course, carrying with it the soiled
accumulation of the years to float insignificantly into the
wide river of manhood. But I am really being almost
intolerably allegorical—or is it metaphorical?”
“Still, I think I understand what you mean,” Michael said
encouragingly.
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