Bildungsromans; England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Illegitimate children -- Fiction
Presently she began to give him an elaborate account of the journey
from Austria, and Michael knew that exactly in proportion to its true
insignificance was the care she bestowed upon its dreariness and dust.
Michael began to wish it were not exactly a quarter-of-an-hour before
lunch. Such a period was too essentially consecrated to orderly ideas
and London smoothness for it to admit the intrusion of anything more
disturbing than the sound of a gong. What could have brought Stella
back from Vienna?
“Did you come this morning?” he asked.
“Oh, no. Last night. Why?” she demanded. “Do I look as crumpled as all
that?”
For Stella to imply so directly that something had happened which she
had expected to change materially even her outward appearance was
perhaps a sign he would soon be granted her confidence. He rather
wished she would be quick with it. If he were left too long to form his
own explanations, he would be handicapped at the crucial moment.
Useless indeed he were imagining all this, he thought in supplement, as
the lunch-gong restored by its clamor the atmosphere of measured life
where nothing really happens.
After lunch Stella went up to her room: the effect of the journey, she
turned round to say, still called for sleep. Michael did not see her
again before dinner. She came down then, looking very much older than
he had ever seen her, whether because she was dressed in oyster-gray
satin or was in fact much older, Michael did not know. She grumbled at
him for not putting on a dinner jacket.
“Don’t look so horrified at the notion,” she cried petulantly. “Can’t
you realize that after a year with long-haired students I want a
change?”
After dinner Michael asked her to come and play in the studio.
“Play?” she echoed. “I’m never going to play again.”
“What perfect rot you are talking,” said Michael, in a damnatory
generalization which was intended to cover not merely all she had been
saying, but even all she had been doing almost since she first
announced her intention of going to Vienna.
Stella burst into tears.
“Come on, let’s go to the studio,” said Michael. He felt that Stella’s
tears were inappropriate to the dining-room. Indeed, only the fact that
she was wearing this evening frock of oyster-gray satin, and was
therefore not altogether the invulnerable and familiar and slightly
boyish Stella imprinted on his mind, prevented him from being shocked
to the point of complete emotional incapacity. It seemed less of an
outrage to fondle however clumsily this forlorn creature in gray satin,
even though he did find himself automatically and grotesquely saying to
himself “Enter Tilburina stark mad in white satin and the Confidante
stark mad in white muslin.”
“Come along, come along,” he begged her. “You must come to the studio.”
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