“It almost consoles me for separation when I think that I have
transferred to him the blessings of that presence that made my own
sunshine. Mind that you send me a diary of your life. I want your whole
day; I want to see how existence is filled, so that whenever my
mind flies back to you I may say, 'She is in her garden,--she is
working,--she is at her music,--she is reading to him.'
“It was a mistake to send me here, Lucy. There are men in scores who
would rejoice in the opportunities of such a place, and see in it
the road to rapid fortune. I only look at one feature of it,--the
banishment. Not that by nature I am discontented,--I hope and believe
this is not so,--but I feel that there are many things in life far worse
than poverty. I have not the same dread of narrow means most men have.
I do not feel depressed in spirit when I lie beneath a very humble roof,
and sit down to a coarse meal; nor has splendor the power to exhilarate
or elevate me. I am essentially humble, and I need nothing that is not
generally within the reach of the humble; and I vow to you in all truth,
I 'd rather be your grandfather's gardener than be the governor of this
great colony. There 's an ignoble confession, but keep it for yourself.
“I have written a long letter to Tom by this post, and addressed it to
Mr. Dempster, who will forward it if he should have left before this. It
distresses me greatly when I think that I have not been able to give him
any definite career in life before we parted. Mere aptitude has no value
with the world. You may be willing and ready to do fifty things, but
some fourth-rate fellow who _knows_ how to do one will beat you. The
marketable quality in life is skill; the thing least in request is
genius. Tom has this harsh lesson yet to learn, but learn it he must,
for the world is a schoolmaster that will stand no skulking, and however
little to our taste be its tasks, we must come up when called on, and go
on with our lesson as well as we may.
“In many respects Sir Brook Fossbrooke was an unfortunate companion
for him to have chanced upon. A man of considerable resources, who has
employed them all unprofitably, is a bad pilot. The very waywardness of
such a nature was exactly the quality to be avoided in Tom's case; but
what was to be done? Poverty can no more select its company than its
climate; and it would have been worse than ungracious to have rejected a
friendship so generously and freely offered.
“I am curious--I am more than curious, I am anxious--to know if Tom
should ever have met my father. They are so intensely alike in many
things that I fear me their meeting could not lead to-good. I know well
that Tom resents, and would like to show that he resents, what he
deems the harsh treatment evinced towards me, and I dread anything
like interchange of words between them. My whole hope is that you would
prevent such a mischance, or, if it did occur, would take measures to
obviate its dangers.
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