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It was no escapade to him, but a serious quest, about which played all
the warm palpitations and eager emotions of high romance. To-night, if
ever, with the earth moving towards the soft riot of spring, with the
air still and brooding as if summer were already here, though sharp and
clean, scoured by the wind and washed to gentleness again by the showers
of April, with the moonlight so strong that in the shadows of the trees
there was no darkness, but diffused and quivering light hardly less
bright than the light of day, and to the eyes of the spirit infinitely
more discerning—surely to-night he might hope to see the fairies dancing
in their rings, and the little men stealing in and out among the
tree-branches!
He longed passionately to see the fairies. The beauty of the earth
meant so much to him. All through his childhood his love for it had
grown and grown till it had become almost a pain to him. For though it
meant so much he did not know what it meant. It had always seemed to be
leading him up to something, some great discovery, or some great joy—at
least some great emotion—which would give it just that meaning that
would tune his soul to it and entrench him safely behind some knowledge,
hidden from mortal eyes, where he could survey life as it was, perfect
and blissful, and withal secret. The fairies, if he could only look upon
them once, would give him the secret. Surely they would not withhold
themselves from him on such a night as this.
He pictured himself lying on the warm beech-mast in the shadows of some
great tree that stood sentinel over a stretch of moonlit lawn, watching
the delicate gossamer figures at their revels, their iridescent wings
softly gleaming, their petalled skirts flying, their tiny limbs
twinkling; and perhaps he would hear the high tenuous chime of their
laughter as they gave themselves up to their delicious merriment. He
would lie very still, hardly breathing. The mortal grossness which he
felt to be in him should not cast its shadow over their bright
evanescent spirit. He would keep, oh, so still, and just watch, and
grow happier and happier, and at last—know. The grossness would be
purged from him. When the moon drooped and the fairy dancers melted
away, he would have seen behind the veil. After that he would never
suffer again from the perplexing thought that there was some great thing
hidden from him, that just when beauty gripped his soul and seemed to
have something to tell him, and he stood ready to receive the message,
there was only silence and a sense of loss, which made him sad. Nature
would speak to him, as she had always seemed to be speaking to him, but
now he would understand, and answer, and life would be more beautiful
than it had ever been before.
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