Sir Jasper Carew: His Life and ExperienceLever, Charles
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Sir Jasper Carew: His Life and Experience
Lever, Charles
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“I have seen you yourself, father, after a meeting with one of
these--these high and titled personages, come home pale, careworn, and
ill. The contumely of their manner had so offended you that you sat down
to your meal without appetite. You could not speak to me; or, in a few
words you dropped, I could read the bitter chagrin that was corroding
your heart. You owned to me, that in the very moment of receiving favors
from you, they never forgot the wide difference of rank that separated
you,--nay more, that they accepted your services as a rightful homage
to their high estate, and made you feel a kind of serfdom in your very
generosity.”
“Why all this? To what end do you tell me these things, girl?” cried he,
angrily, while his cheek trembled with passion.
“Because if I conceal them longer,--if I do not speak them,--they will
break my heart,” said she, in an accent of deepest emotion; “because the
grief they give me has worn me to very wretchedness. Is it not clear
to you, father, that they wish none of us,--that our blood is not their
blood, nor our traditions their traditions?”
“Hold--stop--be silent, I say, or you will drive me distracted,” said
he, grasping her wrist in a paroxysm of rage.
“I will speak out,” said she, resolutely. “The courage I now feel
may, perhaps, never return to me. There is nothing humiliating in our
position, save what we owe to ourselves; there is no meanness in our
rank in life, save when we are ashamed of it! Our efforts to be what we
were not born to be, what we ought not to be, what we cannot be,--these
may, indeed, make us despicable and ridiculous, for there are things in
this world, father, that not even gold can buy.”
“By Heaven, that is not true!” said he, fiercely. “There never yet was
that in rank, honor, and distinction that was not ticketed with its own
price! Our haughtiest nobility--the proudest duke in the land--knows
well what his alliance with a plebeian order has done for him. Look
about you, girl. Who are these marchionesses, these countesses,
who sweep past us in their pride? The daughters of men of my own
station,--the wealthy traders of the country--”
“And what is their position, father? A living lie. What is their haughty
carriage? The assumption of a state they were not born to,--the insolent
pretension to despise all amidst which they passed their youth, their
earliest friendships, their purest, best days. Let them, on the other
hand, cling to these; let them love what has grown into their natures
from infancy,--the home, the companions of their happy childhood,--and
see how the world will scoff at their vulgarity, their innate
degeneracy, their low-born habits: vulgar if generous, vulgar when
saving; their costly tastes a reproach, their parsimony a sneer.”
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