Chicago (Ill.) -- Fiction; Didactic fiction; Mistresses -- Fiction; New York (N.Y.) -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
The play was one of those drawing-room concoctions in which charmingly
overdressed ladies and gentlemen suffer the pangs of love and jealousy
amid gilded surroundings. Such bon-mots are ever enticing to those who
have all their days longed for such material surroundings and have
never had them gratified. They have the charm of showing suffering
under ideal conditions. Who would not grieve upon a gilded chair? Who
would not suffer amid perfumed tapestries, cushioned furniture, and
liveried servants? Grief under such circumstances becomes an enticing
thing. Carrie longed to be of it. She wanted to take her sufferings,
whatever they were, in such a world, or failing that, at least to
simulate them under such charming conditions upon the stage. So
affected was her mind by what she had seen, that the play now seemed an
extraordinarily beautiful thing. She was soon lost in the world it
represented, and wished that she might never return. Between the acts
she studied the galaxy of matinée attendants in front rows and boxes,
and conceived a new idea of the possibilities of New York. She was sure
she had not seen it all—that the city was one whirl of pleasure and
delight.
Going out, the same Broadway taught her a sharper lesson. The scene she
had witnessed coming down was now augmented and at its height. Such a
crush of finery and folly she had never seen. It clinched her
convictions concerning her state. She had not lived, could not lay
claim to having lived, until something of this had come into her own
life. Women were spending money like water; she could see that in every
elegant shop she passed. Flowers, candy, jewelry, seemed the principal
things in which the elegant dames were interested. And she—she had
scarcely enough pin money to indulge in such outings as this a few
times a month.
That night the pretty little flat seemed a commonplace thing. It was
not what the rest of the world was enjoying. She saw the servant
working at dinner with an indifferent eye. In her mind were running
scenes of the play. Particularly she remembered one beautiful
actress—the sweetheart who had been wooed and won. The grace of this
woman had won Carrie’s heart. Her dresses had been all that art could
suggest, her sufferings had been so real. The anguish which she had
portrayed Carrie could feel. It was done as she was sure she could do
it. There were places in which she could even do better. Hence she
repeated the lines to herself. Oh, if she could only have such a part,
how broad would be her life! She, too, could act appealingly.
When Hurstwood came, Carrie was moody. She was sitting, rocking and
thinking, and did not care to have her enticing imaginations broken in
upon; so she said little or nothing.
“What’s the matter, Carrie?” said Hurstwood after a time, noticing her
quiet, almost moody state.
“Nothing,” said Carrie. “I don’t feel very well to-night.”
“Not sick, are you?” he asked, approaching very close.
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