Sister Dolorosa, and Posthumous FameAllen, James Lane
Religion
Sister Dolorosa, and Posthumous Fame
Allen, James Lane
Kentucky -- Social life and customs -- Fiction
"I learned that for years she had toiled and starved to hoard up a sum
with which to build a monument to his memory, for he had never failed of
his duty to her after all others had cast her out. Certainly he had his
reward, not in the monument, but in the repentance which came to her
after his death. I have never seen such sorrow for evil as the memory of
his love wrought in her. For herself she desired only that the spot
where she should be buried might be unknown. This longing to be
forgotten has led me to believe that none desire to be remembered for
the evil that is in them, but only for some truth, or beauty, or
goodness by which they have linked their individual lives to the general
life of the race. Even the lying epitaphs in cemeteries prove how we
would fain have the dead arrayed on the side of right in the thoughts of
their survivors. This wretched mother and human outcast, believing
herself to have lost everything that makes it well to be remembered,
craved only the mercy of forgetfulness."
"And yet I think she died a Christian soul."
"You knew her, then?"
"I was with her in the last hours. She told me her story. She told me
also of you, and that you would accept nothing for the monument you were
at such care to make. It is perhaps for this reason that I have felt
some desire to see you, and that I am here now to speak with you of----"
A shudder passed over her.
"After all, that was not a sad, but a joyous monument to fashion," she
added abruptly.
"Ay, it was joyous. But to me the joyous and the sad are much allied in
the things of this life."
"And yet there might be one monument wholly sad, might there not?"
"There might be, but I know not whose it would be."
"If she you love should die, would not hers be so?"
"Until I love, and she I love is dead, I cannot know," said Nicholas,
smiling.
"What builds the most monuments?" she asked quickly, as though to
retreat from her levity.
"Pride builds many--splendid ones. Gratitude builds some, forgiveness
some, and pity some. But faith builds more than these, though often
poor, humble ones; and love!--love builds more than all things else
together."
"And what, of all things that monuments are built in memory of, is most
loved and soonest forgotten?" she asked, with intensity.
"Nay, I cannot tell that."
"Is it not a beautiful woman? This, you say, is the monument of a poet.
After the poet grows old, men love him for the songs he sang; they love
the old soldier for the battles he fought, and the preacher for his
remembered prayers. But a woman! Who loves her for the beauty she once
possessed, or rather regards her not with the more distaste? Is there in
history a figure so lonely and despised as that of the woman, who, once
the most beautiful in the world, crept back into her native land a
withered hag? Or, if a woman die while she is yet beautiful, how long is
she remembered? Her beauty is like heat and light--powerful only for
those who feel and see it."
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