How distorted the views seemed to him now that he had held on the
journey up from Glastonbury! They were the result of moonlight and of
the pageant emotions stirred by a medieval world. How preposterously he
had acted!
He tried to put himself in Desire’s place that he might judge her
fairly. Irresponsible friends send her a telegram, saying that a man
is coming to fetch her. Of course she believes that the man is to be
trusted; but the first thing he does is to make love. In spite of that,
she has to go with him; he is her one chance of getting to London. He
at once commences to take advantage of her; she gets frightened and
pretends to go to sleep in order to escape him. In the morning she
discovers that he’s an old friend, but there’s too little time to
replace the bad impression. At the last moment she feels sorry for
him--begins to feel that she really does care for him; so she says the
only thing possible under the circumstances, “Come to America.”
Obviously she wasn’t going to give herself away all at once. In that
she had been wise, for, though he had wanted her to, he knew that if she
had, she would have lowered her value.
But he wished she had shown more curiosity. She’d talked all about
herself and hadn’t asked him a single question. She hadn’t even called
him by his name--not once.
Then the cloud of his depression lifted. The truth came home to him in
a flash: all these complaints and this unhappiness were proofs positive
that at last he was in love. The splendor of the thought thrilled
him--in love. The curtain had gone up. His long period of lonely waiting
was ended. For him the greatest drama that two souls can stage had
begun. Whither it would lead he could not guess. Everything was a blank
except the present, and that was filled with an aching happiness. She
was going from him. Already she was out of sight and sound; in a few
hours he would be cut off from all communication with her. Yet he was
happy in the knowledge that, however uncertain he might be of her, he
belonged to her irrevocably. He longed to give himself to her service in
complete self-surrender. His work, his ambitions, everything he was or
could be, must be a gift for her. But how to make her understand this,
while there was yet time?
He drove out of the park, passing by her house. Of her there was no
sign. He wondered what they were doing in there. Was the man with the
blue eyes taking his place and helping to strap her trunks? Or was
he making love to Fluffy, while Desire looked on wistfully and
wished--wished what he himself was wishing?
“You were a little judging?”
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